bits and pieces......

Yesterday we all went out. As a family. It was nice to sit beside hubby in the car and not feel that overwhelming anger/hate. I was on a mission. And at one point, I looked over at hubby and quoted an ayat from Quran....

“Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls)” From 13: 11

I asked him if he understood this Ayat. He did. Then I explained to him...."I need to discuss this ayat with you in detail.....I see a way of success for us.....and it needs complete faith in Allah, pure heart.....and the belief that if you are doing the right thing, that Allah will relieve you of your pressures......I have 2 things to talk about.....remind me later"

"tell me now" he said. But I refused. It needs the proper time and place......

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Last night....in the cozy familiarity of the marriage bed....I brought it up again. And here's my plan....Let me monologue....

"We need to put forth effort to correct the mistakes that we have been making....and the only way that Allah will help us, is if we help ourselves. We need to start with it, with what is in our control RIGHT NOW. The brother that has gone away since hubby remarried......the one who didn't invite us to his daughters wedding, who doesn't talk to us anymore.....we need to go see him."

"we have wronged him. And no matter what his behaviour is with us, we have never wronged him...never gave him reason to justify his horrible behaviour.....but that changed when we didn't invite him to the baby's Aqiqah. And that is not how we used to be. We need to return to how we were with this family....with faith in our Lord, pure heart and strength of Eman.....and ask Allah to relieve us of other troubles, because now we are attempting to walk the straight path."

Hubby sat listening. He looked at me long and hard...and then said..."We will do this immediately......"

"can you do this? Are you ready" I asked..."with pure heart and true belief??"

"Yes. Today" He says....

So we are going there....and whatever Allah decrees about that situation....I AM WILLING! Complete submission to my Lord....Alhamdulillah.

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"What about the 2nd thing?" he asks.

"One step at a time" I say......."we need to take it slow....so lets accomplish this and then we can discuss how to continue......"

He let it go.......do you all have an idea what # 2 is about?

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Yesterday MM sent him a text message....he sent one back immediately. Then later he called her and talked for 9 mins. He called her at 9:30 pm.... I was aware of what was going on......but didn't react. And then at 2 am...while the kids are in bed, hubby and I talking in the living room....she sends a text message....he looks at it for a moment...and then puts the phone down. We continue talking.....I did not address the message. At another time....a more appropriate time.....

This morning while he's in the shower, I check the message....OH MY! (Oh Allah forgive my weakness....) She's sent him a dua. I'm in shock.....it says...

"Oh Allah destroy the cell phone that doesn't ask about me. Oh Allah ruin the batteries, break the screen and obliterate the buttons. Oh Allah always return to us a way out covered, ameen, Lord of the Worlds."

Seems she's a little pissed off about something, don't you think?