Saturday, February 02, 2008

WTH?

So yesterday he calls to check in. He talks to me rather perfunctory. Level tone of voice.....sounds kind of tired. He asks to speak to the kids. He asks who is beside me. None of the kids are beside me.....I'll get them.....

I cover the phone and call the 5 yr old. I suspect he thought I put the phone down....

I hear sexy laughter and a woman giggling......hehehehehe habibi!!! (and perhaps she slaps his hand...its that sort of laughter)

He starts laughing and yells.....BAS YA BINT!!!

.....And I'm holding the phone......I feel sick. (morbid) I ask him...WHAT"S THAT ALL ABOUT?

He says....nothing. I ask.....is that ur wife laughing? He says.....yes, she's right here. So I say.....Give her my salaams and then hang up the phone. Unplugging it from the wall.

WTH? WTH? WTH?

What does he think he's doing? Does that make him happy? This from the man who called me at 3 am to tell me "he loves me". Isn't it just SO obvious pplz? Manipulating bastard. Where is the Islam in this? How can this be considered part of my deen to accept this sort of thing?

I just think that the religion of Islam is tooo beautiful to be likened to a marriage like mine.

46 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Salaam Aleikum.

I cried when I read that - of all the thing this "man" has done to you if I was you THAT would hurt the most.I say "man" but a real man wouldn't be this hurtful to the woman he loves and the mother of his precious children.

I am so so sorry this is happening to you.

May ALLAH protect you inshALLAH.

My Du'aa is with you.

1:45 AM

 
Blogger Relief said...

Salamu alaykum,

what was he thinking? I guess he couldn't find anywhere private to talk to you. I would have went off on him and then hung the phone up - so you were the better one who was patient and then unplugged the phone. May Allah reward you with good in this life and the next. Ameen.

How could he? It just leaves me angry and speechless. Why call you with her sitting there listening and cackling like a witch! And then playing with her... He knows you don't want to hear her from the rules in your house.

2:57 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

As salam aleikum.

Everything he does like this raises your level in Jennah. It's hard, but try not to forget that. I can't wait to see how he reacts when you show him you're not going to take it anymore. Bastard. (sorry for the bad language)

3:44 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, lol, I guess you called him that first so it's OK. Perfect word for him think. Perfect.

3:45 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am sorry, but he needs help, not from you, but from Allah. How can he act like such a good muslim and do this? This is not how its suppose to work. He is using pologomy to fulfill his fantasy, not to fulfill his deen. He is a very cruel man and I am sorry you have to be the one who has to deal with him. May Allah grant you the rest of your life peace.
Hugs to you sis!!

By the way, what does BA YA BINT mean?

6:19 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

SCREW HIM AND GO TO JANNAH IS WHAT I WANNA TELL YOU!!! Take his Hassana, hold him on the sirat bridge, HE IS ACCOUNTABLE!!!

7:26 AM

 
Blogger Mumina said...

Asalaam alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatu sister,

I too am so sorry for your pain and frustration. I know that it is so unbearable - I'm right there with you. One would think that a Muslim man who fears Allah would conduct themself better than this, adopting the compassion, respect, and care towards their brothers and sisters in Islam that is advised in Qur'an and portrayed throughout the Sunnah.

May Allah make it easier for you sis, and for all of us. When he calls, if you don't feel like talking to him, just let the kids answer. When my hubby took off without a word to go visit his woman in Georgia, and after putting myself through the torture of taking his FEW calls only to hear him talk to me like a business partner, I just gave the kids the phone as soon as I saw it was him calling.

Why some of our men don't SEE us, only Allah knows.

InshaAllah, if we are patient and grateful to Allah, maybe we will be blessed with ease after such hardship. InshaAllah.

7:29 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your husband needs to be smacked.
Jehan

7:33 AM

 
Blogger A. said...

I can't imagine how it feels to have my husband treating me this way. It's like he driving the knife in deeper and not caring if it hurts you. I am glad you are being strong and standing up for yourself. This shows your daughters that women SHOULD NOT be treated this way, and your son not to treat his wife this way. I am proud of you for being strong! You go girl! Even though I left Islam, I believe that polygamy could work in the right situation (which isn't most situations). But only if the man really has a heart.

Lots of hugs from the US! I hope you can go to Canada soon and be with your family and friends.

Anisah

7:56 AM

 
Blogger UmmAbdurRahman said...

doens't sound like she's on her way out to me.

8:29 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i second the above post.
Dear sister how much more are you going to put up with?

8:29 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am just surprised that you are surprised. What did you expect? Not much to say here other then that this blogreader saw this coming, why didn't you?

Ah, you are under full control and check. You are performing his control-check things with dilligence.
You are a battered wife although you do not have the bruises to show up. Your surprise over this though clearly show that you are deluted.
Its time to pull your head out of the quran and into some readingmaterial on how to untangle the damage he has done on your brain. I suspect he is a narcicist with psycopathich tendencies. I offer you this;

http://groups.msn.com/PSYCHOPATH

8:37 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

im so sorry for you sister safa.
may Allaah swt give you strenght and heal your wounds, ameen.

9:03 AM

 
Blogger jazain said...

safa dont let him do this to you anymore. you are a beautiful woman with beautiful children. dont waste another year of your life suffering for this mans inconsiderations. he will always be the father of your children and you dont have to take that away from them. but you deserve to have a loving husband that wont make you suffer and cry.

you know, its one thing if he has another wife but to keep torturing you (and she seems to take delight in it too) is evil.

too much time has passed already. as i said before, move on. do what you have to do while he is away and make a good life for yourself. dont be his doormat anymore. inshallah sister.
salam

9:23 AM

 
Blogger Susan said...

Man, that must have hurt. What kind of man, married or otherwise, would call to speak to his children under those circumstances? A shithead. That's the kind of man. Fingers crossed that you are on the path to something better, S.

10:12 AM

 
Blogger Miss Muslimah said...

@*#hole!

10:55 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

what does bas ya bint mean??

10:57 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Safa what do you plan to do about all this? What are your plans?

11:21 AM

 
Blogger Solace said...

You are right - your deen definitely does not expect you to put up with this. Marriage is supposed to be something beautiful, not torture. What is he thinking???

12:57 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ya Allah!
I felt pain reading this. Safa In sha Allah good times are round the corner for you and your family. You have been treated badly and hurting for so long now.

May Allah Ta'ala Grant you and your children perfect consolation. You are in my du'aas sis.

Take care, AsSalamu 'alaykum
A.

1:03 PM

 
Blogger Simply Eva said...

You know that almost made me vomit? Yeah--I'm MORBID like that too. I can just imagine your feelings, cuz I would be feeling the same way!

So she's the "bint" in Canada--TE HE HE, and you're the old ball and chain back in Misr????

You know, I almost wish you could kill off all your feelings for him, stay there, take him for every penny he's worth, live in luxury in the villa you love, and make his life miserableeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

You're letting him off too easy if you're really planning on leaving him for good!

1:16 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh safa, i might just have to sell my body maybe i can earn enough to rescue you and kids and take you back home to canada and start living the good life instead of this mockery this man has made of your lives! gggrrrr

love, sayang

3:18 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

May Allah increase you in good. Safa you are really tormenting yourself with this marriage. What are you trying to prove? And to whom? No need to answer these questions publically but please ask yourself it and be honest. You know without any doubt that the marriage you have is not what marriage is suppose to be like in Islam. Your husband is not the type of husband that Allah orders Muslim men to be. Have you ever thought of the fact that the longer you stay with your husband and he mistreats you and the children that you are only helping to increase him in sin with Allah? Would not it be more merciful and even loving to release him from the marriage and stop his maasiya so that he might have a chance to realize his wrong doing on his own and make the tauba before his soul is taken? Remember, Allah promises that those who sincerely give something that love up for His sake alone, He will replace it with better.

4:18 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

He's a complete and total ass. Seriously, Safa..you should move this over to wordpress. And then you should make some plans for your life and family.

*hugs*

4:51 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What is bas ya bint?

So now at least you know what the 3am phone calls were about: guilt, and relief. Not necessarily in that order.

5:09 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

me too. what dawnuk said

** hugs**

5:38 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Salam safa,

May Allah make it easy for u and ur kids to go thru this trial.

D.

9:56 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Salam safa,

May Allah make it easy for u and ur kids to go thru this trial.

D.

9:57 PM

 
Blogger Safa said...

I suppose my surprise came from the fact that I still expect some level of normal or respect from him. For me, respect is the basic of the least, u know?

AND.....I'm actually HAPPY to see you posted today. And the link was SMACK on!

Battered wife, shmattered wife........I'm about to board a different sort of rollercoaster........

11:55 PM

 
Blogger Safa said...

Bas ya bint means like.."stop it girl!"

11:57 PM

 
Blogger Safa said...

Aliya.....got ur comment....not going to publish it tho........can you send me an email? surah2362@yahoo.com

Tks for the offer, btw....ur too kind....LOL!!!!

11:59 PM

 
Blogger Safa said...

You know what he's thinking Solace? He's prolly pissed cuz I hung up on him......

12:00 AM

 
Blogger Safa said...

Hmmmmm.....Good idea, Eva.....stay and make his life miserable, eh?

I just don't think I have the strength for it......I think I need to find an apt in Luxor...LOL!

12:04 AM

 
Blogger Safa said...

Saffiyah...check ur inbox...

12:13 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Safa, you already know my thoughts on this. Let me know if you need anything. You can contact me 24/7.

Sadiyah

5:39 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

slm aleikum Safa
I don't know what to say, it's too much, it really has to stop now. wish you all the best.
maryam, just reacting for you to know another sister thinks of you and makes dua for you!

7:02 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Leave him. He doesn't deserve you.

7:47 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Safa, I don't think I can say anything different that someone else hasn't already said. I have a bad marriage(not polygamist) and my husband seems much like yours. Reading your blog helps me get through my days a little better. Take care...Wa'Salaams

12:06 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart and prayers go out to you,sister...

2:56 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your husband is cruel and his second "wife" is ridiculous, Safa, really. I couldn't imagine living with someone who has done all these things to me -- I know you have said you're an extremely duty-bound person, but even so... there must be a certain basic level of respect between you two and he seems to have NONE for you whatsoever. He's awful.

3:35 PM

 
Blogger PM said...

Salaam Alaikum.

You know what I am going to say about this:

OINK!

Have you ever practiced calling hogs? It sounds kinda like: soooooo-wheeeeeee! I think you ought to use that next time he calls. If you need me to teach you how to call hogs, just give me a ring. LOL!

Love you,
PM -- and I ain't feeling too peaceful right now ;-)

3:33 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So after reading all of this, I just have one quiet comment to say.

When are you beginning your life?

(and I emailed you.)

Praying for you and for your children hon..

6:21 AM

 
Blogger Molly said...

"SCREW HIM AND GO TO JANNAH IS WHAT I WANNA TELL YOU!!! Take his Hassana, hold him on the sirat bridge, HE IS ACCOUNTABLE!!!"

suhaylah rocks. He is accountable and he will find his deserved reward(roasting) on judgement day.

I hope I and my family can help you.

hint

hint

call. :)

9:07 AM

 
Blogger Mona Zenhom said...

Cruel. Just Cruel.

1:22 PM

 
Blogger Elena Martínez Blanco said...

Safa I am so sorry he is like that. i pray that you and your children can get away and have a normal and happy life soon. Many hugs from Spain!

2:02 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Salam alaikum dear sis,

I've been reading your blog all this time and even though I have never met you I know I love you, love you deeply as my sister in Islam.

I second what "musleema" said above:
this is not what marriage is supposed to be like in Islam.

Stand up, you are not the one who should be suffering here. This is not a healthy environment for your children too.

I sincerely believe Allah loves you very much, however please don't forget that

“Indeed Allah will not change what is with a people until they change what is within themselves.” [Ar-R’ad: 11]

Please move on. If you can't stand it anymore, make change to your life. We know you can make it. You have been very strong, and you will always be.

Much love,
a sister

3:54 PM

 

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