Details. Details. I think I'll skip the little details. Let me stay with the majors......

Well, first of all.....he's gone. And rather than cry after he left, the strangest thing happened. I broke down before. I cried so hard and just couldn't stop. I fought myself for control, but was fighting a losing battle. Hubby hugged me hard, trying to smother my tears into his shoulder. It didn't stop them, but the closeness, the comfort helped. Even tho as I cried I thought about how the person who causes the pain makes the worst person to comfort you. Sigh.

I had many things that I was planning to talk to hubby about this visit. Well, I didn't talk. He's supposed to be returning in April. I pray that this is the truth.......and should it be........he's saying that he'll be staying for some time when he comes back. He talked about buying his tickets 6 months open. Allahu Alem. He does have the ability to do that......he once came and stayed 7 months.

His two oldest girls talked to him the day before he left. Hubby asked me to let him talk to them privately, and politely asked me to leave the room. I did. But I could still hear them. They cried their eyes out, and discussed his new wife with him. They discussed the amount of time he's spending in Canada (with her) and his lack of time with us. SubhanAllah. The 11 yr old had some very particular things to say, and I was surprised at her amount of understanding and ability to discuss it with her father. Of course, u know he defended himself well.........but I know my hubby is from the kind that will think about what his children said to him. I sat and cried as I heard them trying to advise their father..........May Allah ease their hearts, ameen.

Here's some more news........Hubby started the renovations of the villa. The new balconies are being made, the fence surrounding the property with gates is being put up, and the extra floor will be done as well. Masha Allah. He's saying that by next visit, the entire outside should be done. Insha Allah. Oh yes, we also found out that the price of building materials has gone up extremely since we first bought the villa. Had we of done the villa when we first bought it, we would have saved ourselves about $82,000 LE in building materials alone. (steel, concrete, sand, stones) Alhamdulillah. It sure makes you feel bad tho.

This piece is interesting. We've bought a new SUV. No, really. Hubby went out and bought a 2007 Toyota Land Cruiser. Black with black tinted windows. He was going to buy me a new car as well........talking about getting me a 2007 Suzuki Mini van.......but in the end, we opted to start on the villa instead. I like the mercedes anyways. Prolly next visit I'll get a car. This is a huge purchase. I'm so surprised at this. What am I supposed to think? Prolly that he's really on his way back, cuz there is no way he'd buy a SUV just to park it, right? Here in Egypt, driving this sort of luxury vehicle is a biggie. Ppl keep trying to look into our windows when we pass, because they think that the Minister must be inside it. LOL!

Oh get this. We went to Cairo to visit his brothers. No, not all of them. Just the 2 that we are still friendly with. One of the hateful brothers saw us driving up in the new SUV, and took a double take when he realized it was his brother. Now, what do you think he should have done? I think that coming over and saying salaam would be a good option, don't u think? Well, that's not what he did. He walked away as if he was going to go buy something. 10 mins later he came back...(prolly thinking we'd already left).......and walked right inside the building.....not even glancing at us, passing just in front of the drivers side window.....and went upstairs in the bldg. Ya Allah! And don't forget what I said about this SUV....EVERYONE looks at it. So for him to not even look over again at the vehicle, was really obvious. That's too bad.

We took the other brother out with us.....he has 5 girls, masha Allah. We went to visit their sister.....and then to visit an aunt. We had 13 ppl in the SUV. It has 3 benches in the very back. We weren't even squished. Even with the bro's flippant behaviour......we went out and made the best of our time.

Now here's something unreal........on the night hubby was leaving, he gets a phone call from Canada. Some action has been taken at his work. The owners have removed some property illegally, the owners daughter threw herself on one of hubby's workers and then called the police and said he assaulted her......(rolling eyes)........the police came, lawyers....the whole kit and kaboodle! Hubby was very pre occupied the last 6 hours because of all this. No problem. Maybe in a way, it's a blessing......he was leaving anyways. Just think if they would have tried this a week ago. His situation in Canada right now is on fire. Funny how the fire is following him. Now even coming to Egypt isn't far enough away for him. SubhanAllah.

Who me? How am I doing? Well......surprisingly....I didn't break down again when he left. I am sort of numbed. Full of hope......and not. Thinking about some advice I got from a good friend from Canada. In fact, it's the sister I converted to Islam with. Yes, lots of thinking, I suppose. But the bottom line is again.....summer. The kids finish their exams and then I make my decision. So letting my hubby go without talking wasn't such a biggie, I guess. Let him have his time. I shall enjoy what I have left of mine.....and then we'll see what Allah has in store for me.

I was thinking this morning, that I only have 3 more months until I get to hold the baby in my arms......and I can't wait. I pray that the rest of the pregnancy goes well. Ameen. A baby is a blessing.....alhamdulillah. I'm doing fine with the insulin.......took a little getting used to......the DR has increased my morning dose......and when I test my sugars, they are hovering at Just About Fine....LOL!

So that's about all the majors......there are so many minors, that I know I won't type them all out.....but from time to time, I will probably remember something and share it......it's a comfort to know that I have real live ppl reading me, and sharing this time with me. Feel free to say whatever you all want to....I like listening to the variety......but know.....in the end, my choices are my own......and my responsibilities fall on me......I will always do what I feel is best for me and my children......even if some of you don't agree. We are all like the fingers on one hand......united together, but different still. I love my readers fi sabillilah. And thank you for coming on this journey with me.............