If you are angry when standing.......sit down!

Spent the day with my niece today. (Hubby's brothers daughter) She lives about a 40 min drive away. She's another story......struggling with her deen. She loves me as if I'm her real mother....and I just pray for this girl to get herself together. So anyways....we had a good day. Hubby had to work until 9pm, so after the jummah prayer, the girls and I headed over to see my niece. We hung around for awhile, and then went to Pizza Hut for dinner, my treat. Then we went to this great park....it was amazing. My 3 yr old was yelling in the car, "WEEEEEEEEE!!!!" It was a great park. Afterwards we dropped off to see her brother, my nephew. I haven't seen him in over 6 yrs. It was a short visit. His life is so screwed. SubhanAllah.

So the day was going okay, but then at Pizza Hut, they gave the 3 yr old and the 9 yr old some paper and crayons. My 9 yr old sits concentrating and then proudly shows me her picture. Here's how she described it,

"Its a picture of a little girl, Mama. See, she's smiling......but really she's crying on the inside, that's why I put all those tears on her face. You can see the tears, right? And the nice big smile too?"

Oh, my sweetheart. I folded ur picture and put it in my purse. I had to excuse myself to go to the bathroom. You know I cried in there. I bawled in there.....I wanted to rip off my hijab and throw it in the toilet and make it stink and then force myself to wear it. Oh my sweetheart. I'm soooo soooo sorry. I'm going to be watching you these next couple of days. I'm feel like a turd.

So then, get this....on the way home in the car....MM calls. It's exactly 10 pm. (we got a little lost....so hubby called and told us he'd be waiting for us at home.) (Just so u know, Hubby has no home phone...so basically, when he's at work, he has the work phone, and I'm basically always carrying his cell phone now)So here's the conversation.....
MM: Assalaamu alaikum, is ** there?
Safa: wa alaykumus salaam, no he's not.
MM: But I need to talk to him.......
Safa: Did you try the store? He's not here.
MM: I didn't try the store.....
Safa: I'm sorry to remind you of something, but I've spoken to you before about it, maybe even a couple of times. Right now, you are calling quite late, and normally Hubby would be spending time with me.....I'd really prefer if you'd respect me and not call him after hours.
MM: silense
Safa: Do you understand me?
MM: (she lets out a big breath and says saucily) No, I don't understand.
Safa: Okay then, I will talk to Hubby and have him make you understand.
MM: It would be better that way...Assalaamu alaikum.
.....and she hangs up, before I can say salaam.

I'm PISSED! She BLEW HER BREATH OUT AT ME??? I'm still driving and have about another 10 mins to get home. So no less than 10 mins later she calls back:

MM: Assalaamu alaikum, is ** there?
Safa: wa alaykumus salaam, no he's not.
MM: But I called his work.
Safa: okay, well, he's not here.
MM: I need to talk to him.
Safa: well, when I see him, I'll tell him to call you.
MM: Ummmmmmmmmm.......he's not there?
Safa: no he's not here, but I'll make sure he calls you, is it something very important?
MM: Yes it is.....I really need to talk to him right now.
Safa: (I flip now...does she think I'm lying??) So I start yelling....I SAID I'LL TELL HIM TO CALL YOU WHEN I SEE HIM! HE'S NOT HERE!! DO YOU WANT ME TO PULL HIM OUTTA THE STREET FOR YOU? WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO GET HIM FROM????
MM: fine...Assalaamu alaikum.

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HOLY MACARONI!! So the second I walk in the door, I see Hubby sleeping....I wake him up and tell him calmly to call MM cuz she called twice and she says its important. He sees I'm pissed tho. So he calls her and I hear my hubby say, "La Howla wala Quwitaa illa billah". Which means something bad....and then he asks her if her friend is still with her. Then I hear her start yelling in hubby's ear. I go make wudhu and pray two rakat out in the livingroom. I'm breathing heavy. I go back to the room and I hear him telling her, "They were in another city, they just got home, she gave me the phone and told me to call u the second she walked in the door"....and I start to yell....IT'S AMANAH for me to tell you that she called. Am I going to hide it? FOrget to tell you???? I told her I'd tell you and I did!!!! I leave again. Hubby calls me back a couple of seconds later and asks me what happened. So I tell him..."I thought you told me that you don't want to be put in a position to go between us??" "Wallahi, I wasn't even going to tell u what happened" So he pushes me....and I spill it. I was so pissed. She has the nerve to tell me that she doesn't understand!! And then she's so pushy that she wants to talk to him....does she think I'm lying and holding the cell phone under the blankets so he can't hear????? PUHLEASE!! So after Hubby finished with me, he called her back. I heard him say to her.....ENOUGH! ENOUGH! I'll deal with it tomorrow. You can wait. You don't need that right now. (need what, I wonder?)

And after all that, Hubby didn't bring it up again. Neither did he try and calm me down. And here it is 3 am, I still can't sleep.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: I know I am right when I say I don't want to meet her. I can imagine what she'd be able to do at that point!! TOmorrow morning I'm off to spend the weekend with my Mom....leaving Sat Morn, back Sun night. He's off to MM's. Oh and you know what?? When Hubby talked to me about what I said to her on the phone, I told him...yelling.....THAT"S WHY I SAID YOU SHOULD TALK TO HER ABOUT WHEN SHE CALLS! TONIGHT IS MY NIGHT AND NOW ITS RUINED>>>THAT"S NOT FAIR!!!!! LET HER RUIN HER OWN NIGHT!!!!

I'm not leaving Canada. No way. I'm thinking that its going to come to 2 options........but let me think......