tick tock, tick tock
8 pm, the night before.
Here I sit, yet again, looking at my computer screen, claiming my readiness to leave Egypt. I've finished all the major things, and have just a few tinies to complete. I may not even try to do them now, I may wake up early with a coffee in the morning, and do it then. All the clothes are laid out....and the shoes cleaned........
I guess that's about it.
I was able to finish the stamps that I needed from the Egyptian Embassy, it was a run around, to say the least, but I finished. You gotta love doing paperwork in Egypt.
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So my niece is having a hard time again.......she's looking at us with those EYES. She's only 7, you know. I've told you about her before, her name is Areej. She's our sweetheart. Before we left on Thursday, my girls made a little party for her with sweets and pop. My 14 yr old made a small photo album for her, too. On the first page it says, We love you Areej. And then on the other page she has a bunch of pictures of Mom's hugging their children....and then 4 pictures of the kids. She wrote, My Family on that page. She made sure to translate it to Areej, so that she'd understand. It's so sweet.
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At the airport when I went thru gate #1, everyone was saying salaam and I turned to go.....as I was walking away, I thought....OMG...I didn't hug Areej......so I went to go back and hug her....the guard tried to stop me, but I just quick-stepped around him........I had to hug her. She was so happy that I didn't forget her.
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My 11 yr old daughter talked to me today about forgiving her Baba the time he owes me. By the time we get to Canada, he'll have been gone 30 days.....so he already owes me about 3 mos, we'll be staying about 20 days, so if he doesn't go back and forth between us.....he'll end up adding another 10 days to the 3 months. I have thought about forgiving him this time, should he ask me to.
I've decided that I will. Even if I really do want my time. But for the fact of him bringing us to Canada, and the effort that he's doing, I feel that I must be accepting and gracious about it. It shows a good step on my part.....reciprocating good steps on his part.
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I'm planning to go to sleep about 10 pm, insha ALLAH.....I want to sleep nice and long and be refreshed in the morning.......the kids as well.......
Again, I'll be back as soon as I can hook up with the library there........can't wait to get back on here and see what all u crazies are doing.
I love you all.....and pray that Allah protects you and keeps you all glowing with the light of Eman....ameen.
posted by Safa at 10:25 AM
13 Comments:
Insha'Allah all will go smotthe tomorrow.
I think it's a good sign that you are in the mindset to forgive the extra nights. I concluded long ago when I realized my hubby was not going to be fair in this regard that I had to make my best effort to help him, and not make a big issue about the disproportion as long as I saw him trying to make and effort.
I think that showing him that you are trying to ease things for him -- when many women would want to really sock it to their hubbies -- should help remind him about the generosity and compromises marriage requires.
Love you sissy and am praying for you and yours,
PM
12:04 PM
Safa my dear, you really are a strong woman. That part about carrying your baby in a bag while you carry 12kgs worth of groceries, really touched me. It reminded me of my mom, and how she used to do the same thing just to get groceries. She would have to leave her older kids at home and take the baby to do the groceries, too. You're a warrior Safa, whether you knew that or not. I know it broke your heart to have to leave your little ones at home, subhannallah, but you had to make that sacrifice. That's a woman's jihad. I would've just cried and wouldn't have known what to do.
About your husband's trials, sister know that a lot of the hardships we go through in life are also a result of the wrong/bad decisions we make. So even though we go through these hardships or trials, Allah allowed it to happen for whatever reason. This is why it's so important for us to seek Allah's guidance in whatever decision we make. And be more general in our prayers ie. pray that whatever happens in the future as a result of all this hardship you're going through, you'll come out of it stronger and happier. Put your trust in Allah and just be patient. I know you've heard of that phrase many a times but honestly, you don't know why certain things happen. You're the innocent bystander in all of this, don't trust your husband to give you happiness, he may never stop being polygynous, even if he did leave "Morrocan Magic." Trust Allah to make you happier. That's what faith is all about.
(64:11)"No calamity befalleth save by Allah's leave. And whosoever believeth in Allah, He guideth his heart. And Allah is Knower of all things".
(10:63-64)"Those who believe and keep their duty (to Allah). Theirs are good tidings in the life of the world and in the Hereafter - There is no changing the Words of Allah - that is the Supreme Triumph."
Safa, I hope you make it to Canada safely. Take care...and I look forward to reading about your journey there!:)
12:46 PM
Asalamalaykom Safa,
You are habibi! You are a real love! You are in our prayers! You and the children...and even your husband. May the right path become evident and may you remain a guide for others. Ameen
12:55 PM
Salaam, Safa;
Thank you so much for visiting my blog (Underwater Light). I don't think I've ever commented on your blog before, but I've been reading it from nearly the beginning. You and your family have been in my heart and prayers; the Qur'an promises us that after every hardship comes ease & insha'Allah, although I know it will come at its appointed time, I hope that you will have ease soon.
Please remember us in your du'as as you travel, and I'll be anxiously awaiting an update from you in the wilds of Canada. ;)
Masalaama,
b.
8:31 PM
thanks so much for all the kind words....
It's almost 7 am here.....I'm drinking my coffee and thinking about going to have my shower now.....(I want my hair to be dry when I put my scarf on...nothing worse than that sweaty/wet hair smell.....so I gotta be prepared!) O ya....I don't have a hairdryer...so either I stand in front of the air conditioner or fan..or just wait for it to dry.....options, options, options....sheesh! I pick hair dryer....D'OH!
8:40 PM
Salam alaikum, I hope that your journey to Canada goes smoothly. You and your family will be in my duas.
2:15 PM
May Allah bless all of you with a safe and beneficial journey, aameen. Keep us posted.
6:10 PM
Man I missed reading your blog today because I didn't get online. Your blog is the first and the last I read each day. Take care in Canada and honestly if I were you I wouldn't forgive him the days. Men don't really appreciate things like this anyways. Man I sound bitter!!!! lol. Anyways why are we sooooo nice??? We let them treat us like this and tthat's why they take advantage. You know what???? If the reason you are doing it is ONLY Fisabeelillah then I say go for it, but if you ask for it you are not doing anything wrong because this is YOUR RIGHT! Take care sweetie....You're in my thoughts. Fi amman Allah
10:19 PM
hmm. i'm not too sure about forgiving him so fast either! for a start, surely he'll be held accountable in heaven for all the days he's missed with you?so you could save him having to explain himself if you made sure he'd served his time, as it were...
but have a lovely time in canada, and masha'allah you and your 11 yr old are so forgiving in nature! i'm just not convinced that if you let him off the 3 mths that he wouldn't start collecting more days as usual.
3:11 AM
salaam safa.
i have decided to take a peak at your blog today from the rock I have been hiding under lately. I need to stay more active here...
inshaa allah you are well and having a good time in Canada.
3:20 PM
Salams dear Safa
I hope you arrived safely in Canada. I hope, Inshallah, this trip will turn a new page in your life, for the better. Please update soon... all your readers are missing you so much :) Take care of yourself.
4:51 PM
Salamu alaykum,
I hope you made it safely to Canada. We need to invest in a laptop for you next time you travel as there is a definite void in Blog world! I hope you get to a library or friends house soon and let us know how is life with Moroccan magic and hubby.
7:01 PM
As-salaamu Alaykum, insha-Allah all is well. I miss you, girl:).
4:58 PM
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