Curiousity isn't really healthy....
Do we agree on that? So kill me for looking at his cellphone. Sigh. Or maybe I should exhibit some self control where it's concerned........
*he's calling her every day
*she's calling him back
*she has a habit of sending two text messages about 2 hours after talking to him
*she's been sending text messages daily around 3 am
*he's deleting the messages
But this AM he forgot. There were two......
"If you don't want to answer me then why did you tell me to buy a card and call you back? Am I bothering you that much? If you only knew the state of agitation I am in...."
"I won't bother you too much. But when I told you I am sick....thanks for not calling and checking on me. Perhaps you are worried that you'll have to answer me....Thanks"
And then he has 13 missed calls from her. SubhanAllah.
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How does this affect me? Well.....I don't let it. I'm sad for MM. It's like hubby is peeling her off really slowly......and that's not fair. OH! You know what he told me today? He went to a class in the mosque and he was telling me that the Shaykh said....
"if you do something halal and it brings you towards haraam......then it turns the halal into haram for you...."
You get it? So if your husband marries another wife.....(halal).....and now he can't be fair between you both.....it turns that marriage into haram.
I was going to explain my take on what the shaykh said......but I don't fight anymore. No fighting, no crying and no begging. Just me being me. I'm good.
And I don't need a man to explain that to me.
(and in some deep part of my being, I wish MM would call me. That for once she'd reach out for help.......I wonder what I'd tell her? Could I seriously advise her without letting my nafs get in the way?)
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We had company for these last 3 days. I've been so busy cooking! For our thursday night guests, I cooked.....
Biryani, tandoori chicken, raita, basmati rice and chapati. YUM!!!
Fri night guests?
Pizza, hamburgers, cheese bites, fried hotdogs in a blanket and cucumber salad
Sat night guests?
Spaghetti and meat. Salad. Soup.
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So much cooking, so much laughter with all the kids......so much fun! I did the pizza with my oldest and the oldest niece......we laughed so much that my daughter fell on the ground in the kitchen and the niece peed herself.....LOL!!!!!
I did my little bits here and there to make the kids happy. Thats what counts. Hubby was upset cuz I made the pizza.......he thought we should make meat instead. In the long run it both cost the same.......and the pizza went over soooo well with the kids......
I don't blame him for thinking that way tho......if you were raised in Egypt, you'd understand.....sigh.
BUT DID WE EVER HAVE FUN!!! Alhamdulillah. Now if I could only get out of the house.....I'm going shack whacky. It's been a long time since I've gone out........it's starting to get to me.....HELP!!!!!


10 Comments:
Asalamu Alaikum safa,
I think that it is amazing that through all your pain you are still able to have so much fun and laugh with your kids. Mashallah!
6:44 AM
LOL I love those words "shack whacky" I'm going to use them from now on!
We say "cabin fever" in my family but either way when the walls start closing in on you it's definately time to get out and get some fresh air!
9:28 AM
True, curiosity that leads to monkey brain is not so healthy, but what do you make of all this? The messages, her sometimes obsessive attempts to ring him...what does he say is happening? Has he instigated a divorce w/ her?
9:04 AM
You know what's sad about all this? He neglects the most important advice the Prophet (saw) left before he died
"It is true that you have certain rights in regard to your women, but they also have rights over you. Remember that you have taken them as your wives, only under Allah's trust and with His permission. If they abide by your right then to them belongs the right to be fed and clothed in kindness. Do treat you women well and be kind to them, for they are your partners and committed helpers. And it is your right that they do not make friends with anyone of whom you do not approve, as well as never to be unchaste." (Source)
I don't see what is the point of attending mosque lectures when you are missing out on the basics and obviously the regular meetings aren't fixing anything!
3:23 PM
I just wanted to pop in to say I know a lot of your readers tell you, you shouldn't check your husband's cell phone, but I'm here to say I would never have the strength not to. I just couldnt help myself! I always think forewarned is forearmed. Hugs!
3:30 PM
CG - If I start trying to guess what's going on I'll go crazy.......it's just easier to say that she's asked him for something and he's taking his time answering.......sigh.
Organic - I think I will bring that sermon up in front of him today.........
Eva....tks for popping and saying the recommended. (lol)
9:59 PM
safa I don't know how you do it. I've been in a monogamous marriage for four years, and it'd be fair to say that a big part of why I stay is that we have a son together and one on the way insh'allah. But because there's a personality differnece and I'm so unhappy I feel like I can't carry on much longer. Sure I can stay married for the sake of my children..but at what cost...that i'm down everyday..that maybe i'll snap one day and kill myself? And we both have tempers and that doesn't help.
4:04 PM
GET OUT THE CELL PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know how hard it is I waS there I did it. I suffered because of it.
I thought i needed to know
But when u dont see what you want who does it really hurt.
com eon safa
that is his wife!!!
let them break up in peace and privacy.
You dont need to be the first to know.
How would you feel if it was her doing it to you.
I love you and do not want to see u hurt anymore
and why take on thier sin. Is it worth it......just to knw she called
5:34 PM
Safa, I too can't blame you for checking the messages, I know it's easy to say not to do so, but I know I would do the same. Hope you can take the kids on an outing, or better yet, just you!
8:40 PM
salam alaikoum
i wanted to blog about sort of what organic said- stereotypically speaking, why is it that i see women always questioning themselves and moving forward, and men just sit there like "I'm the best Muslim ever all holy pious and stuff" no matter what crazy sh*t they are doing? BTW I am not singling out your husband per se, I have seen this IRL and it is driving me crazy.
9:13 PM
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