The Broken woman.......
The Broken Woman Fawziyyah al-KhulaywîLying in a recovery room in a hospital in Riyadh is a woman paralyzed from the neck down. When asked what happened, she replies: “My husband came to me accompanied by a woman and announced to me that she was his wife.”
“I could not bear it. I ran to the window and hurled myself three stories to the ground.”
Those moments when a husband declares that he has married another woman, they are the most difficult moments in the first wife’s life. It is a pain that cannot be described.
It is a searing flame that does not subside.
It is a sense of loss, of sinking into an abyss, the depths of which rival the years they had spent together sharing the bitter and the sweet.
For the wife whose husband is, in the whole world, her pillar of strength and only refuge –
He is her kindred heart, her gentle guardian,
The one with whom she shares her joy, her grief,
Who consoles her in her weariness,
Whom she tends to in his distress,
Whom she rushes to when problems get to much for her to bear
And when things get out of hand
She feels joy in embracing his children
And bears the long hours waiting for him.
She prepares food for him with her hands
,And would sacrifice for him her most precious possessions
Because he is her intimate friend in her lonliness,
Her companion in a strange world.
We cannot measure in time the lives they share together –
for it is not in days, nor in weeks, nor in months.
Rather, in moments, in breaths.
When a woman gets married, she weaves for herself a special world
Whose morning is her children, her husband, and her home
And whose evening is light and hope.
Her joy is the sight of smiling faces;
Her felicity is peace in her home.
Her sky is not the sky we know
Nor her Earth the one we tread.
It is an inner garden, a timeless joy.
When her husband turns away from her by marrying again, the lofty cloud of dignity that had always sailed high in her sky dissipates and she is left with two choices:
To ask for her freedom and insist upon it,
Or rip her own dignity to shreds, gather up the pieces, and tread hard upon her injuries.
It is the breaking of a woman.S
he only breaks because of the disregard for the womanhood within her.
Therefore, do not be surprised by the stories you hear – or think that they are made up – for they are the stories of women struck by the arrows of misfortune and cut by the blade of separation.
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There was more, but I've cut it there.....you can google it and find it for yourself. This hits a nerve with me....but I wanted to say....that above all things...it should be Allah first and foremost.....


20 Comments:
Oh wow.. that's so poignant. My heart goes out to you!! It's true Safa, we can not even imagine the paroxysms of anguish you are enduring. I don't know but when I see your courage and conviction, I'm made sure that Allah is watching and His kingdom is not void of justice, inshaAllah you will be served yours. Until then, you have so many of us who love you for your strength and fortitude and pray for you.
4:07 AM
Assalamu Aleikum wa rahamtulahi wa Barakatuhu,
Wow. "Slavery"(no man or woman can actually be a slave to another, the term refers to those in bondage and service, a captive) was also never actually banned in the Quran, it is only better NOT to have them. http://www.understanding-islam.com
/related/text.asp?type=question&qid=675
"Slavery" had a historical context in the society at the time of revelation and Quran exhorts the believers to get rid of those their right hands possess, but never actually makes it haram.
Similarly, it is also true of polygyny. Not banned, but Allah says,"... Marry women of your choice, two, or three, or four; but if ye fear that ye shall not be able to deal justly (with them), then only one or (a captive) that your right hands possess. That will be more suitable, to prevent you from doing injustice."(Qur'an 4:3)
http://www.understanding-islam.com
/related/text.asp?type=question&qid=2175
wow. Quran is so clear.
Polygyny also had a historical context in the society at the time of the revelation as well. Men had MORE than 4 wives. The Quran not only limited that, but also made stipulations to that practice.
Well, I see it more as black and white but I realize that many sisters (and brothers) see all the shades in between. We are a varied nation indeed.
May Allah (SWT) help you in all your halal endeavors.
ps. I am fairly new to reading this site: Understanding Islam, I do not believe the brother from the links I posted is giving a fatwa, but he has studied Islamic Sciences in an academic institution, which most of us, sadly to say, have not.
11:58 AM
Well, Safa it's been awhile since I wrote or commented on your blog. There have been a bunch of things going on with me-(I'm sure you've read). But I wanted you to know that it is great to see that you are still hanging in there and doing your best in this beautiful struggle we call life. You are still in my prayers!
12:08 PM
I had the same reaction when i read that a while back. Yes, its heart breaking and all of that, but not to the point that your husband is your foremost concern in life, even above God.
However, I think this goes back to culture. Divorce and other social problems are stigmatized to a major degree in the 'muslim societies'. A degree, which we in the west aren't brought up with. So we can't understand their extreme reaction.
burgundy
2:49 PM
Hi, I read your blog but never commented before. What a waste of life over a selfish man. Very sad.
This is one of many women misery. Some accept, some don't, some come out stronger and some are pitiful. Whatever it is the pain is too much. The is the Test from Allah and we can only turn to him for guidance. Be strong Safa. Inshyallah, Things will work out for you.
7:27 PM
May Allah be with Fawziyah in her hardship and with u Safa in ur coming decisions, but dont forget to pray Istikharah my Dear. Allah m3ake.
12:39 AM
Ameen to the dua's.......
3:01 AM
Asalamalaykom Dear Sister,
I couldn't read this thoroughly. I read all the words, but I stopped the deepness of meaning. I couldn't bear it. I would break down and dissolve into tears, and I can't afford any more of those.
For all the legalities and niceities, I still sit here alone with my son...our son...in an apartment without his father; my former husband.
And he is at work, in a business that he is shutting down. After work, he will go to stay with his former Somali employee whom he always derided, but now must befriend in order to stay at this welfare flat.
So, this is MY reality of polygyny. It isn't in a book, read by wives to their husbands. But, it is a very real possibility of hardship after the announcement. Just like what you've shared is a very real possibility of feelings.
Let's not, in our vast nation (not a tiny tribe), close out the sad truth of many for the gladsome polygyny proclamations of a few.
And mashahallah, I know YOU will print this comment.
6:18 AM
Salaam Alaikum dear sister,
I couldn't agree more with our dear sis HA. I'll start supporting polygyny when Muslim men start acting like the Prophet (saw). And even then, I most likely wouldn't choose it for me.
Love you,
PM
10:10 AM
I posted a comment on here, Safa.. did I say something I shouldn't have?? Sorry if I did..
2:36 PM
Assalamu Alaikum,
I think 'PM' said it just right...agreed upon!
Polygamy personally wouldn't be for me. But then again, I always wonder--is marriage for me?
7:00 PM
Safa, this was too much I read this along time ago. But was not feelign what I am feeling now. I can see how a person can feel like jumping .......but ...The thing is when this happens to us we are so scared we are so hurt we are so numb. we go through too many emotions at once. That can be overwhelming. I know for me it is daily. I have good days. I have great days. But I have way too many bad days and tooooo many horrible days.
I am so sorry but this life is not for me. as much as I try to make it
As much as i try to rationalise it. It just does not work. It is like putting an elaphant under your bed and thinking no one will see it or it does not exsist. IT does exsist and she does she is real and is bigger than the elehpant.
how can a person give you an elaphant and think your life will not change or it will not affect you????
This polygamy has taken over my life. I just want it back. I am like you safa. I do not like who I have become. I do not like the person I am.
I am taking the elephant from under my bed and I am setting her free......maybe then my heart will be free maybe then I will be free...
11:32 PM
Marigold....did I somehow miss a comment of urs? I'll double check that. BTW....I usually post just about everything....unless I figure someone is out to create some havoc!
LL&LI......OH Honey.......you say it so well about talking about hiding this elephant under ur bed. What a great comparision.....
You said, "I have good days. I have great days. But I have way too many bad days and tooooo many horrible days."
Now that must strike a chord with every person in a P marriage....because although I am not the product of a positive P relationship, I would think that us women suffer from different parts of this marriage. There are just too many ways to hurt someones feelings......sigh.
You know, LL&LI, you have been with me since the beginning, and many times it was you who helped me see thru my own pain and work on keeping my marriage together. And for that, I am grateful. Remember when you told me to swing off the chandelier? (wink, wink!) Well, those swinging days are over, and sometimes we just don't feel like swinging.
I think that proximity is ur major problem right now. If only that could be figured out. And then it comes to one more thing.....is it enough? Is it?
12:27 AM
" I'll start supporting polygyny when Muslim men start acting like the Prophet (saw)."
Judging from the sisters’ blogs, most men in monogamous marriages are also not fair to their wives. How about discouraging even monogamous marriages.
Comparing polygyny to slavery. Screwed logic.
If a man misses breaks his oath, he can recompense by freeing a slave, but if he even tries to get a woman in polygyny divorced from her husband, he will be committing one of the greater sins in islam of trying to cause separation between husband and wife.
4:46 AM
Assalamu'alaikum sister Safa,
It's been a while since I last left a message here. I have been reading though, and feel your pain. I've come to my own conclusion about polygyny. My life is not worth wasting on a man who only thinks for his own pleasure. My happiness is not worth sacrificing over a man. My sacrifices are only for the sake of Allah. To sacrifice my happiness is to put a man before Allah. For surely Allah does not condone living a life of sadness, misery and pain for the sake of another. Our emotions are God given and is there to judge between what's right and wrong. Polygyny is not a man's right but a right given to orphans. The way I see it, a man is committing not only adultery but also taking away the rights of orphans and making it his own. May Allah forgive me if my analogy is way off.
I have another month before my iddah period is over. I'm moving on with my own life, with or without my 5 kids. I can't guarantee that my life will be happy but at least I know that another human being is not in control of my happiness. Allah is in control of my life not a man, and the choices/decisions I make from here on out will determine my fate. I love you sister and I pray for your happiness too.
8:43 AM
ohhhhh whoa! Seeker....wow....I'm blown away.....
I have less than two short months before I find out my own fate....if you've read the post before this one, you'll know that i'm also walking. SubhanAllah.
I've always wished you would contact me, I'd love to talk to you away from the blog....can u not post me ur email? I wouldnt publish the post.....well, think about it, okay?
Loving you too...
Safa
8:48 AM
Nobody is encouragind divorce, and/or the acquisition of slaves either. Just a reminder, divorce isn't haram either.
You made the comparison, I just presented the facts.
Assalamu Aleikum.
11:11 AM
p.s. your comment isn't clear. Why would a man want to make a woman divorce herself...whether she is in a monogamous or polygamous marriage? That makes no sense to me.
And the ayah about marrying more than one wife, also includes those that your right hands possess, which is the same as one in slavery (captives), so, uh, there is a connection. You yourself pointed out that it a form of atonement to get rid of captives. Look again.
11:14 AM
musulmana
The question is whether to free slaves is as rewarding in islam as divorcing or causing the divorce a woman in polygyny or speaking against polygyny.
If someone frees a slave, he is doing a great act of worship. If someone causes a divorce of some woman in polygyny by creating rift between them, or encouraging her to getr divorce from her husband, he is committing one of majpr sins in islam.
4:38 AM
anonymous. I frankly understand what you are saying. Again, I am not of those who ever encourage divorce. You can read my comments as far back as 1 year ago possibly.
But if the ayah says to marry two, three or four...or only one or those your right hands possess (paraphrasing) it also implies that you can marry one, or keep your captives. Letting go of captives is an expiation of sins, no? What about when a man cannot deal justly with more than one wife? Then what is a reasonable answer/expiation for wrongs? I feel that the Quran says, then only one. You see my point? Wa Allahu Alim.
Also, the haram that ensues from a sour relationship is one reason why divorce was made halal and not haram.
Even the Prophet's daughter, Fatima, disliked the idea of polygyny. The Prophet (SAWS) in turn spoke to Ali (RA) and told him, I dislike what Fatima (RA) dislikes (paraphrased). Given that Ali (RA) was polygamous after Fatima died showed that he was interested in having more than one wife, while during Fatima's lifetime, there was no other woman (which there probably would have been candidates willing to marry Ali), just Fatima.
Different women are created with different tolerance levels. Actually, I see it in the sahaba's examples. For all the sahaba that were married, monogamous, or polygamous, Abu Huraira never married. I feel that the stories of the Sahaba and the Sahabiyyat are as varied as our ummah. There are many positive, halal roles models and examples to choose from.
I hope you can understand my point of view. I will never say polygamy is haram, although I find that the Quran was emphasizing on its being a difficulty, (...if you can't deal justly, then only one). Muslim men should emulate the prophet (SAWS) in many things other than polygyny. But, ultimately, it is the man's test, his life, his hereafter, not mine.
That's why sometimes I refer to other links on what scholars or learned people say about it.
I worry about the impression some Muslim men give the non-Muslims. Are there lives a correct interpretaion of the sunnah? Just some of my thoughts.
I am glad to take advice. I am not offended by your comments. I hope I did not offend anyone. Also, I hope noone understood that I encourage divorce. Each family has its path. I do hope that if a sister is suffereing oppression or cruelty though, or even fears either of the two that she would choose divorce (which is the halal of both options). Because Allah (SWT) does not want us to help the oppressor, and Allah (SWT) says that He would not change our condition until we did something to change it ourselves. Just my thoughts. I would be happy to read other's thoughts as well.
May Allah (SWT) forgive me if I have deviated or caused anyone to choose a haram option, or caused them to stray from the correct path. PLEASE DON"T LISTEN TO ME! LOL Just my thoughts on the ongoing discussion. I am obviously not a scholar and my opinions and thoughts are just that.
BTW, thanks Safa for allowing a side discussion on your comments...LOL
5:42 PM
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