Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Dreamgirls......and the dream.....NOT!

I haven't told you all the latest little piece of info here.....oh this one is interesting. Well, it is to me....LOL.

So here in Egypt, we've got one foreign radio station....NILE FM, 104.2......they've got some great music all around the clock. And great prizes. I think you all remember when I won the Canon Printer? Oh....that was great.

So for the longest time, I haven't been able to get the radio station to tune in....isn't that frustrating? Well then, a couple of days ago......I change around the livingroom, and put the stereo in a different spot.....and suddenly....I get NILE FM again! WOW! So I've been listening and enjoying the banter that goes on among the announcers.
So on Monday, they are talking about the movie Dreamgirls. And come 1 o'clock, they announce....if you text in the answer to this question correctly, you could win 5 tickets to the opening night of Dreamgirls in Egypt. It's at this really posh cinema.....never been there, but it's on the Nile, so you get the picture.

What's the question? Well, they ask.....What Oscar is Eddie Murphy nominated for? So I know I just heard about it on TV....best supporting actor.....but like the perfectionist that I am....I jump online super quick and double check that....yup. But on the net the say its....best actor in a supporting role. Hmmmm.....so I opt to say it like on the net. I text in my message.
"Eddie Murphy was nominated for best actor in a supporting role...please pick me so I can go with all 4 of my girls."

So after 1/2 an hour of giving ppl a chance to text in. They have to pick a number between 1 and 173. So one of the announcers pick number 74. And the announcer says..."It looks like ur going with ur 4 girls Safa...we are going to be calling you shortly!!" WOOHOO!!!!!
I'm sitting there with my 14 yr old and we are stunned. She's dancing around the room, jumping for joy, I'm still in shock and they call me to get my full name and details. I'm supposed to show up on Tuesday night at the opening, they'll be there waiting for me. WOW!

This issue poses as a problem. I haven't been in a cinema for 19 yrs. I'm not kidding. My hubby and I have been of the personal opinion that cinema's aren't the greatest place to bring ur kids. It's movies and well......it's what we agreed upon. My 14 yr old is so excited. What to do?

Well, they ask another question before 3 pm for 5 more tickets and a dreamgirls tshirt. The question? What is the name of the character that Beyonce is portraying? Hmmmm. My 14 yr old wants to answer....she saw it on TV, it's Deena. I tell her the name Deena isn't enough. So back online we go....double check....Deena Jones. Ok.....so she texts in this time, her cell phone. She writes...
"Beyonce is portraying Deena Jones....please pick me, cuz it was my sisters bday and all I gave her was a box of chocolate, she'll be so happy" LOL....we are good at the sucker lines, aren't we? So then, 1/2 an hour later.....the announcer says..."OK, We've picked our winner and its ANGELZ! We will be calling you, congratulations!"

We are both sitting there, I yell out....OH....MY....GOD!! My daughter jumps up.....WOOHOOOOO.....for the second time...(she has got to have some variation, I tell ya!).....and we both do the jiggly dance...(not to be confused with Hubba Hubba).....and are going crazy out of minds. Tons of laughing and joking goes on for 10 mins....like...nobody is calling the radio except us? Or.....HAHA they fell for our sob stories!! Or.....today is OUR lucky day!! LOLOL....but then, reality sinks in. How can we go? We've never been? So I tell her, we'll have to discuss this with Baba. So I send him a text message and ask him to call. I warn him to be prepared for this one. LOL!

So he calls, and his daughter talks to him.....explains everything with excitement and laughter......I love hearing my girls talk like that.....and then he tells her to give the phone to me. So I take the phone and tell him.....Isn't this something interesting for a change? He laughs and says WOW!

So we discuss the issue....I tell him....Look, it's a one time deal thing. I'm not starting to send my kids to the cinema....the tickets basically fell into our laps....and if we go, it's because of that. I'm not willing to change 15 yrs of a standard on this. So he agrees. He asks me if the girls understand that. I told him they do. So he says....well, I don't want u guys going alone. Take the two nephews with you, and go. (22 yr old and 18 yr old) Well, we've got 10 tickets now, right? LOL! And then he says something nice...he says....I wish I was there so we could go together.....ohhhhh.....I like hearing things like that.

So now, insha Allah, we are going. We won the tickets.....and really thought we wouldn't be going....talk to Baba...and we are going...YAY! So I call up the 22 yr old nephew. Tuesday is his last day in the army.....I know he'll be excited. So I tell him that we won tickets and we want him to come to the movies with us.....he's so happy! Just one thing....it's his last day in army, so he has to finish his day at 2 pm....go hand in his stuff...(army clothes, bag, etc)....and take his money. No problem he says...I should be there by 5 pm. (he's the son of the downstairs BIL) I ask him about bringing his brother too....he laughs and says...my brother is Mama's boy...there's no way he'd come. So okay...I scratch that. YAY, we are still going.

We don't have to be at the cinema until 8:45 pm on Tuesday...so with him coming by 5 pm, it gives us plenty of time.
Girls are all excited...we can't believe it. Then at 9:30 pm, we get a call from downstairs SIL. She doesn't sound happy. She says...whats going on that you need my son tomorrow night? So I start to explain about winning the tickets and stuff....now this family is suffering from Saudi syndrome....and I love them to death, but they are sticky super religious to a point that I don't usually agree with. Anyways.....after I tell her everything, she tells me just a second...and I can hear her telling her husband all that I said.....and then she says.."well, can our son go or not?"....(he's 22!! OMG!).....so BIL tells her....I'll think about it and let her know later. JEEZ! Now I'm thinking....we aren't going.

We go to sleep, and all of us feel let down. We thought the hardest part would be for their father to agree.....but it seems to be getting more complicated than that.

So I wake up Tues morning. I see the BIL's car parked downstairs. Okay...he may call me then. And I wait around most of the morning hoping that the phone will ring. It doesn't. Not even by mistake. At 12 noon I look outside and his car is gone. So I give it an hour and then I call my SIL. I say to her...."look, about yesterday and the tickets and all....if it upsets you guys, or you don't want ur son going to something like that, I understand.....I don't like having problems with you guys over little things". (oh ya, unless it's of course my utter lack of interest in buying them a 2nd car...but hey....) So she says...oh no...we were just worried. When my son said that you wanted him to go to Cairo with u guys at night, we thought there was something going on, or wrong.....but my hubby is totally okay with you guys going. WOOHOO....We are going again!

So have you been keeping track since we won the tickets? We won tickets, we are going, we have to talk to Baba...prolly not going....talk to Baba...we are going.....talk to nephew....we ARE going....talk to SIL....we aren't going.....talk to SIL again...WE ARE GOING! WHEW! Catch all that?

Okay....well, it doesn't finish there. Nephew arrives home at 3 pm....WOW...so early I say when he talks to me.....well....he still has to go give in his army gear and collect his pay. He has to go to another city to do that......he should still be back by 5 or 6. So then I say....how about you take my car then? That way you'll be quicker! So he's like that's great! I hand over keys and by 3:30 pm, he's gone. Kids come home from school, they see him in the car leaving.....we have a hurried dinner....sit around for a bit, talking about the excitement of the evening to come.....what an atmosphere! Now it'll take us about 1 hour and 15 mins to make it to this cinema. It's in downtown Cairo in a very busy area....we could arrive in less time....but I figure an hour and fifteen is about right. I tell my nephew that before he leaves.....tell him that we should leave by 7 pm, to make it in good time, with about 1/2 an hour to spare.

The girls and I get our clothes together......iron what has to be ironed...I bathe the 4 yr old and the 9 yr old....get them dressed up all pretty. 6:45 pm...nephew still hasn't shown. So I give him a call on his cell phone.....and he says...he's still there and he shouldn't be much longer. Okay then. So we get dressed and by 7:30 pm....he still isn't here. Hmmmmm. So I call him on his cell phone again....now it's turned off. MAN! The city that he is in is a bit far away....he will take 40 mins driving to come back to us. So I start to figure things out.

Hmmmmmm. At 7:45 pm, I tell the girls....look, if ur cousin doesn't make it back here by 8:30 pm....we can't go. We will be too late, the movie starts at 9 pm.....by the time we get there and parked, the movie will be half over......I'm 7 mos pregnant.....and I don't think I could handle going while ur cousin is speeding trying to make up time. (I was planning on letting him drive) Lots of long faces....and one by one....my princesses start lining up on the balcony. With every passing minute....their conversation becomes louder and louder.....I'm sitting just beside the balcony and can catch snippets of it.....

"why do we always get let down?......this reminds me of Baba......Oh Ya Rab...please let our cousin get here.....tears and sniffling......I am so happy to go........nothing ever works out for me, I always get my hopes up and then THIS......(now I hear lots of dua).......Baba is always late for us...makes us run around....maybe it's a man thing to be late......I don't know why Mama couldn't just bring us herself?.....why does she always have to depend on someone?......when Mama depends on someone it never works out........."

Oh it went on and on. My heart went out to them...it really did. 8:30 came ........ and went. We ARE NOT going. No nephew. Girls changed their clothes amidst tears. I then promised them that we'll order Pizza Hut. So I get on the phone and order two large pizza's. Everyone has their little crying spell......and I discussed some issues with them. It's not their cousins fault. We asked him to fit us into his schedule. We didn't ask him to work his schedule around us. He has obligations that he was expecting to finish sooner. He's prolly sitting there just as upset as we are. ALhamdulillah...easy comes and easy goes. Maybe Allah is protecting us from something? We can always win again....we'll see. Slowly, slowly, I eased their minds.

At 9 pm....the nephew calls. He's on his way and tells me to get ready and wait downstairs. I picture him driving 180 trying to make it to us. So I tell him calmly...."Drive carefully, habibee.....don't worry.....it's too late now....so u just take ur time coming home and we'll talk...okay?" He's anxious and says...No, get ready...we'll still make it. I remind him that I'm so pregnant, that I can't handle the fast driving...and tell him....it's no problem...just take ur time and come back.

I take my 12 yr old and we walk over to the store to buy pop to go with our pizza. As we come back from the store, my nephew arrives. It's now 9:30 pm. Sigh. One look into his face....and you can see how horrible he feels. My heart goes out to him, it really does. He apologizes profusely....his big brown eyes look like they are going to tear up. Oh my. I tell him...really, really, it's no problem. What can we do? That it is Qadr Allah, and its for the best. He tells me how he's been working so hard lately, and going back and forth with the army besides....and how much he was excited about this night. He promises that he's going to take us out some other time.....and just doesn't want to leave our sides......poor guy. It seems that I have to ease his mind as well. And eventually, I do. Well, I think I do.

Alhamdulillah.

So that's my whole Monday/Tuesday story. Quite busy, eh? So did u keep count now? Sigh....emotional rollercoaster extraordinaire!

We're going / not going / we're going / we're going / not going / we're going / we're not going!

Our pizza came....I had bought a pkg of pre fried chicken with the pop and we ate that with the pizza........and well, that was that. Everyone went to bed....exhausted I presume. When I finally made my way to my own bed...I lay there for awhile thinking.

And you know what it was that kept coming to my mind? The phrase...

"When Mama depends on someone it never works out."

Hmmmmmm.....so I lay there thinking about that until sleep came and claimed me........I didn't come to any conclusions about it tho......I wonder if I ever will.

13 Comments:

Blogger PM said...

Salaam Alaikum Safa,

This post really struck a chord with me. I see so much of this kind of thing in the Arab world and it frustrates me no end. All the power lies with the males and then they let us down. It is particularly upsetting when it doesn't have to be this way. I am not blaming your nephew because it sounds like he was really stuck but why do so many Arabs think it is acceptable to disregard reasonable time constraints?

You drive; your husband seems to feel it is okay to leave you to live on your own in Egypt; but you cannot take your daughters out to a special treat and see a movie???
I think this is especially difficlut for kids that have a foot in two worlds -- Western and Arab. It just doesn't seem right....

Sorry for the disappointment.

Love,
PM

10:55 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for that too, Safa. I feel disappointed after reading this too. I understand why you didn't go, but what would have happened if you would have taken them yourself..in a cab or something??? Just curious.

11:19 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Assalamau Aleikum wa Rahmatulahi wa Barakatuhu,

Don't you live by yourself? And shop for food and clothes by yourself? Don't the kids go to school and come home to a house full of women? Didn't you guys need a "chaperone" then?

If you don't go to movie theatres because you believe it is not right, it is one thing, but your intention was to go. The problem was the "chaperone" issue.

It is soo weird to me that your husband dictates some of what goes on in your life but not other stuff. Doesn't he trust you and your judgment to raise the girls?

I am soooo confused.

Really.

I have never been more afraid of going to the Middle East because I will usually feel like "I don't get it". Not to be mean or anything, but I'm so confused.

Maybe being out in Cairo is hard without a mahram, Allahu Alim.

I live in an American suburb, so minivans and mothers with kids going out is commonplace. I usually take my mom and/or dad with me when I go out without my husband anyway, so I never worry.

Is it a going out at night thing (I understand that) or a chaperone thing, or a Cairo thing, or an obeying your husband thing? How would it work out if you didn't have your husband (divorce, widowed) would you have gone?

I am so sorry to ask all of this, just genuinely curious.

Also, I am really sad about the disappointment your girls felt. Missing the movie will be trivial, insha'Allah. Trust in people is hard to rebuild. But I am afraid that that is a lesson that the men in their lives is teaching them.

Arghhh, I hope I'm not being mean, just curious.

12:43 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

OH Safa! I'm so sorry for all of you that you couldn't make it to the movies. Reading your post.. I
got all
excited! 10 tickets at once??! WOW! Subhan Allah. I love NILE FM too.

Your nephew is so sweet. I can tell he felt horrible. Can't you go another day since you've got the tickets? The movie looks so fine!

Anyway, something better is to come insha'Allah :)

Bless you and the girls!

1:35 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yes I agree. I don't understand why a mother can't take her kids to a movie!!! This is ridiculous..what are you teaching those kids...that you always have to depend on someone else..that you can't do anything by yourself??? I don't even understand the logic that says a mother can't go to the show with her children? Why in heavens not??? My heart goes out to your children..little kids and to be disappointed over something that should have been such fun..I really shudder to think of the lessons these girls are learning..??????

2:33 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Asalamalaykom Safa & Girls,

WHAT A BUMMER! BOOO! BOOO! I hate that you missed the show! I don't know if it's good or not, but it was free and you wanted some fun. Sooooo...alhumdullah :) Say it even when you feel like hating the moment. I could hardly read the ending, as I saw the dissapointment approaching. Awwww...But alhumdullah.

As for driving 5 girls when you are 7 months pregnant, count me out. I could not have handled that. Tooooo much, mi amigo.

God bless you and thank God for pizza!

3:00 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

safa, i don't understand the " we don't go to the cinema" rule, since the government has censors anyway to cut out the bits you may not want your kids to see...and some others they cut just for the sake of cutting.
if you watch or let your kids watch any of the mbc channels, or one tv from dubai...that rule makes no sense.
no offense intended. but it all sounds very strange to me...

2:06 AM

 
Blogger Safa said...

PM.....oh I hear where you are coming from, and I find some things here quite frustrating. Maybe I should just say some things....driving in Egypt is an adventure to say the least, not many street signs, horrible drivers and lots of other stuff. When I first came to Egypt, we didn't have a car, okay, we got the car, I got an egyptian drivers licence....I'm driving around my city...eventually, I go to Cairo, always needing to take someone with me to get there....then I go to downtown, again with someone....until little by little, I get around. It took awhile cuz the streets here aren't the same as in Canada. Okay, I passed all that.....I'm on my own now, no escort...my own 14 yr old daughter is better at navigating anyways.....

But there were a few strikes against me with this free ticket deal.
#1....the movie was from 9 pm until 12 midnight. I still would have just over an hours drive to get home.....that's late.
#2....I don't know where the place is....oh I have a general idea...and it's right smack in down downtown Cairo.....not the greatest place.

My husband cites his being worried about us, when it comes to venturing out on our own. I don't fall for that anymore. For a man who is so "worried" about his family...leaving us for 6 yrs seems to have been too simple, u know what I mean? So we do venture out, we see the world.....and had these tickets been for a matinee....even in the same area....I would have gone alone.
Thanks for bringing up some very good points and making me think....and others as well....because the problems you cite are found with many sisters....

Musulmana...I suppose you can just read my response to PM, that about covers what you are questioning....the exceptions being that it being something we don't do...yes, movies was something that we had decided never to participate in....my intention to go was cuz we won so many tickets...ahhh well. And the other thing was that the problem for me was centered about it being a night thing. Coming home at 1 am was just too much for me.
BTW, the girls all said that men are always late.....so they are blaming it on the gender....what can I say to them? I'm in total agreement!

Anonymous # 2.....I hear ya! But I think from my two responses here, u'll get a better idea of what the problem was.....Believe me....I do EVERYTHING on my own here, and have long since passed the day when I find myself unable to manage something on my own.

HA:.....My stomach is so big this time...it's unreal. I'm 7 mos preggers, and look just like I did with the last baby at 9 mos!! The things I wore with the last baby, galabeeyas...u name it....are all tight on me. I feel like a walking whale. Yesterday in the car, I had to move the seat back so my stomach wouldn't touch the steering wheel. Now I keep stalling when I drive cuz I can't reach the clutch so well anymore.....just my tippy toes are touching it!! I don't think I'll be driving much longer.

4:56 AM

 
Blogger Mona Zenhom said...

AWW MAN! That stinks, but Who knows where the khair is right? I wonder if nile radio reaches here....You'll have some compitition, LOL. The disapointment reminded me of a lot of times in my childhood. Lesson learned: Never get my hopes up.

4:18 PM

 
Blogger maggie said...

I really enjoyed the excitement of this post. You and your girls had such fun winning these tickets and it's a shame it didn't work out. So sorry for the disappointment you had to deal with.

What strikes me here once again is how strong you are to rise way above any bad circumstances and disappointments you face. Oh that some day I will be that strong!

You are such an inspiration to me Safa. I think often "after difficulty...ease". I find it amazing that even in the worst difficulties you always seem to find that ease right there in the middle of it.

Take care of yourself and keep doing whatever it is you are doing to get through these times. It's working!

I love you across the miles,
Maggie

7:49 AM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

*cry* It was going so well, I expected it to work out in the end! Such is real life. May Allah bless your darlings for their sabr, and you for your wisdom. Ameen!

11:58 AM

 
Blogger Safa said...

Oh, it was definately exciting, Maggie.

I've always been the kind of person to take things in stride.....only pausing momentarily at the little inconveniences life brings. You know what scares me tho? Change. I once quit a very good paying job for that very reason. They wanted me to do some underhanded dirty work, and I just couldn't accept that in myself. So rather than bend a few personal rules, I quit.

But this time, with the whole P-factor, with all the lies and dirty stuff surrounding it....I feel that I'll be letting ppl down. Oh, I know that some of you will be yelling...FINALLY!!! But others want the happy ending as much as I do. But now the countdown is on.....I've got just two short months till baby makes his entrance on the world....insha Allah. And then? Decision time.

And this time? No compromise.

10:47 PM

 
Blogger Anisah said...

I just found your blog and I have been reading the archives this week. You are a great writer, you make things come alive as if we were actually there.

I can only imagine how I would feel if I were in your situation. You are strong and stand up for yourself, but you still have been caving and letting him treat you this way. You may think you should stay with him for your kids, but what if they think that's how a woman can/should be treated in a marriage and they end up being treated that way? Would you want one of your girls staying with a guy who treated her like that? Of course not. Obviously I am not in your shoes, so it's just something to think about from someone else's perspective.

I also think it's bull that you couldn't go to the theater because you didn't have his nephews with you. You drive all over Egypt by yourself! How is this any different? And how is a theater any different than watching a movie on tv? Sorry but I can't understand that.

I am a former Muslim. I almost got into a polygamous situation myself a few years ago. What stopped me from doing it was that he would have to sneak around and not even have my kids see him, because my kids knew his wife and kids and brother, and he didn't want any of them to know (you know kids can't keep a secret). I didn't want a marriage like that. I wanted my kids to have a father figure, even if it was every other day. I would have liked the freedom of doing my own thing sometimes. I'm very independent like that. I don't like to be told what I can do or not do or where I can go or not go. The guy was sweet, but I didn't marry him.

I also considered living in Egypt 3 years ago. One reason was it was so expensive in the US, and my ex is from Egypt so our kids could see the family and learn Arabic. But I decided I couldn't deal with all the culture on my own. I knew I couldn't really count on his family, we were divorced for years and I wasn't family to them. I did live in Amman for 1 1/2 years with my 3 year old father's family. That probably gave me a little idea of how life would be like in Egypt, except there I would be on my own. I don't think I would be happy on my own there. I would love to visit there someday.

Big hugs to you, and I will continue to read your blog to see how you are doing. Stay strong, and send us some warm weather please, it is snowing in Michigan today!

Anisah

6:06 AM

 

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