Who needs money?

Today I'm full of feeling. So many things going thru my mind, everything doing flip flops.....my brain remaining firm.

I finished the paperwork at the lawyers yesterday....oh he was in Top Form.....when I walked in the door he yelled at me...."HAPPY MUSLIM DAY! Come on in!".....and he took me in the office. Then he exclaimed........TODAY IS THE DAY ALL MUSLIM WOMEN HAVE TO THUCK IT!!!! And slammed down the custody papers.

I was overwhelmed....WTH?? He exclaimed that he doesn't like the fact I'm doing this....blah blah, long story. At one point I openly laughed at him and asked him what's got him in such a bad mood today??? Twice he left the room to walk back to his own office and I yelled loudly......"HOPE YOU AREN"T POUTING OVER THERE! TODAY CAN STILL BE HAPPY!!!"........the secretary was laughing, but the lawyer was fuming. HAHA!

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So I thought a lot last night......what I've given up, who I've left.......and thought about HOW GREAT IT IS TO BE WHERE I AM!!! YAY! Alhamdulillah! I deserved so much better than to live with the daily drama.........

So I called the Hubbex and left him a voice mail....."come pick up the papers if you'll be in town today...."

He called me at 11 and said he'd be by the house around 12. He sounded morose. Spoke in monotone. He asked me if any of the kids are home. In fact, the 13 yr old was home, so I said she'd bring the papers out to him.

He called back at 12:05pm....."I'm around the corner. Ummm........can you come out for a moment?"

Sure.

When he arrived, I brought out the paperwork and he made some small talk. He seemed about to say something.......and finally....he did.

"Ummmmm........well I'm having trouble paying the Visa bill for the tickets. It's about $4,500. Ummmmm......is there any chance that you could help me pay that?"

WTH????????? Ummmm......NO! (and I laughed....)

He stood there quietly.....holding the baby now. (we were outside on the sidewalk) I asked him about his van. I told him I needed money to buy a van and was hoping he'd help with that. (no comment from him) I asked him to sell stuff in Egypt........and he said there were some problems in Egypt.

Then I just stood there quietly wishing he'd leave. And then suddenly.....he did.

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I have the feeling that he wanted to say something else to me........I wonder what? But asking me for cash for the VISA?? IS HE NUTS??? I wonder why I didn't blow up? Why didn't I yell at him? Perhaps the way I handled it was worse....just laughing at him and then asking him for money too?

One thing that I do see here, is that it'll be a cold day in hell when he decides to fork over some money to me.

(On another note.....click on my profile....I'm starting a new blog.....come take a look see)