Winding down.......

THE KIDS.......

15 yr old ~ She is going for some testing on Tuesday, insha Allah. Afterwards they will assess her and decide how many credits that she'll get. Then they'll place her in the proper high school grade. Her spirits are good.......and she's being a real help around the house. Yet she's deflated because she has to wait longer to get her life in some sort of routine. We've had our moments......but her and I are closer than ever.

13 yr old ~ Her first day of school was really bad. Her homeroom teacher was absent and it was a supply teacher. The class was rowdy.....and one boy in particular made her feel bad. As she was leaving school, in low spirits....he says to her....."YOU DON"T BELONG HERE! YOU AREN"T ONE OF US!" Yeah....he was a real cool kid.......sigh.

Her 2nd day was better...the school is really helpful and they want her to do well.

Now if I only had a cure for her attitude. She's been moody and sometimes goes and sits in her room. I've been putting a lot of effort into talking to her and trying to get her to open up. It's working...alhamdulillah. Yet there are times when she becomes impossible. She talked to me seriously about going to live with her father......and then later, told me that she doesn't mean it. I know that she's in a difficult age.....and my heart cries for her. In fact, I actually did cry for her. She stubbed her toe so hard that she screamed and cried....holding her bloody toe....(she hit it SOOOO hard)....that I started crying too......didn't know that it hurt me so bad... Being a mother has its surprises......

11 yr old ~ School is WONDERFUL! She's really enjoying it. They played a few games in her class and she won everytime.... She has such a positive outlook on life. I enjoy listening to her retell stories of her class. She's developed quite an apetite as well....masha Allah!

She had a talk with me and asked me why I didn't want to go back to her father. The first of many similar talks, I am sure.

5 yr old ~ YAY! SCHOOL! She loves it! And she told me in confidence that she would love her teacher.....even if she was ugly! LOL!! She's made many friends....all nameless....she can't remember their names.... She has asked me in the past month to go home. She said she wants to go to her "other one" house. Since we've come to the new place she hasn't asked again.

Her apetite has improved as well. You should see how much she packs away....masha Allah!! She looks so good in her snowsuit.....I'm so thankful to the very kind person who sent it to us! It's so great!

Baby aka AFB ~ He's so in love with Gramma! Masha Allah! You should see how he sticks on her! It seems that he has allergies to something.....right now we think that it's bananas....go figure! He's crawling over the house like he owns it!

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Who me? Well.....I've spent DAYS outside of the house. I run around with appt's with agencies about getting help, relief organizations, getting my paperwork together, kids and school. I've left the baby with my mom for an entire day which I've never done before. But it has to be done. And I'm moving slowly ahead with my plans on settling in.

I went to the food bank last night. The people there were very kind. They gave us lots of canned foods and some vegetables. No meat, though. I am down to $11 in my account until the 1st of April. It makes me anxious but at the same time.....we will be fine. Allah always provides. Alhamdulillah.

So on the 1st of April I receive my first gov't cheque. I called some voice automated thingy and was surprised to learn that it was for less than my rent. OH NO! I called in and questioned them and found out that's how they operate. My mother will buy the food and I will pay the rent. And I will go to the Food Bank to help. It's going to be tough for awhile......but insha Allah....I'll start looking for a job soon. You never know.

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A friend of the Hubbex called. He told me that Hubbex is a changed man. (although still married) He wants me to go back to the Hubbex and then go to Egypt. Yeah, I just don't see that happening. I questioned him about the Hubbex not giving us money. He says that I'll have to meet with the Hubbex to let him know what I want. Doesn't that just piss you off? Does he not suppose that we need money? This friend talked to me for quite awhile. And I wonder at his ability and willingness to help us? I told him flat out......I will request a divorce from the Hubbex. He told me he was devastated...... Devastated? I told him that if he wants to understand what devastation is...then he should imagine how I felt after I found out that the Hubhole was married.

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We need bunkbeds. We've got three bedrooms and the one room is small. Only thing that will work well in there, considering space....is bunkbeds. I've been sleeping on the floor in the livingroom with the baby. I really don't mind. I spoke to the Foodbank about beds. They said that they get them donated from time to time.

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Day before yesterday I fell asleep like a rock. I didn't hear anything for 8 hours. Not even the baby. I'm exhausted. And although each day brings new challenges....I succeed at them. Alhamdulillah.

And even though I'm running around trying to get things done....I'm also keeping the laundry bag empty, the kids bellies full and everyones homework done. It's a challenge........

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I opened a fortune cookie for the first time in over 20 years. And suprisingly it said....
"You will overcome all obstacles with perserverance and hard work" LOL!!