I just realized.....
Thanks for the emails that I've gotten from people who have nominated me for the Brass Crescent Awards......I was nominated last year, but alas, didn't win. You can go nominate your favourite blogs in a number of categories......go take a look here.
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Today I realized that although the hurt and pain that you face in a difficult marriage subsides, it never goes away. As I sat thinking about where I've been and where I'm going, I started to cry. I counted the tears that fell on my cheeks. In my own OCD way.......perhaps on the day of Judgement I will tell Allah the number of those tears.......and will be rewarded a mighty reward.......ya Rab!!!
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Who said OCD? I keep washing my face......and for some reason or another, accidentally stick out my tongue while doing it and inadvertantly, end up with a mouth of soap. I keep doing it accidentally and have come to realize that it prolly isn't that much of an accident anymore. I think that I secretely like the taste of soap but don't admit it to myself........LOL!!
posted by Safa at 9:47 AM
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Sunny you wrote this because I was just having the disussion with another Muslim about whether Allah really does want us to "sacrifice ourselves" on this earth for some reward in the hereafter. I hear it passed between women so many times and I have to wonder....
But then according to an anonymous poster responding to my post on my clinical depression, I am just a "self-serving parasitic bitch" -- so what do I know?
Salaam Alaikum,
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3:05 PM
this from the person who on the forums always brings up others eating soap!! HAHAHAHHA maybe it was a secret desire for you to open the door to making this admission.
on a more serious note, we never really leave the misery. It becomes a part of who we are, it shapes and defines us.
- lost bedouin
3:51 PM
Safa, I hope you win that Brass Crescent this year, because I have learned more about Islam through your blog than I ever thought possible.
I'm sure just mentioning that scares the heck out of other Muslimahs, because no one wants an outsider to get a bad impression of one's religion, and I think some readers might think that your struggle with polygyny is a negative reflection of Islam. As a non-Muslim blurker (I really love that word...bluuuurk...bluuuuuuurk....blurk!) I have never gotten the impression here that Islam's acceptance of polygyny is the problem. The problem has always been your husband's betrayal and your attempts to put your life back together and move forward. The strength you have drawn from your religion is inspiring, and your charming anecdotes about daily life (backscratcher versus the mouse, kids doing funny/cute things) woven in with accounts of how you live your religion every day give an outsider a very accessible, approachable impression of how a real person lives in Islam. I cannot thank you enough for teaching me so much.
Regarding tasting soap: palmolive is where it's at, baby! In all seriousness, though, I am looking forward to the day when I come to your blog and all of this pain and turmoil has passed, and you have nothing more interesting to write than that your mango trees are laden with fruit, and we all get terrifically bored by your accounts of throwing mangoes at your in-laws or something.
Serious subject change: I wanted to let other blurkers out there who might be slogging through your archives (I use the term 'slogging' affectionately, of course) about a very useful tool that has made reading them so much easier. One month's archive - with comments - can take AAAAAAAAGES to read! :) So I've downloaded a handy tool called 'Dog Ears' which you can use in Firefox to mark your place in the month if you need to - you know - go do the dishes or something - and come back to it later. I hope that's useful to someone out there in the circle of Safa's admirers.
And finally, Safa, do you still want to learn how to sprout beans and grains? Because I - in all humility here (ahem) - am the SPROUTMASTER. You need only ask and I will reveal all my secret sprouting techniques. Ancient, dark, secrets that have been in my family for...minutes.
6:42 PM
Try washing your face with honey. Yum. And it works incredibly well. If you need some extra exfoliation, add a pinch of baking soda.
I tend to accidently taste my facial soap and since I've been using honey, it is fun. And my skin looks sooo much better too. Can't beat that!
9:16 PM
I'm still laughing about you secretly liking to eat soap....lol
7:44 AM
But that's the thing....I don't like the taste of it! But when you are "accidentally" licking the soap like 5 times a day, EVERY DAY.......SOMETHING must be going on right?
7:47 AM
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