Signs for those who see......

This morning just started all weird. SubhanAllah!

It started for me at 4:15 am. I woke up for fajr, giving myself a little extra time to prepare suhoor for hubby. First I go to the bathroom. When I come out of the bathroom, I can hear something strange.....what's that? I think? Someone is yelling....but like muted yelling...."HARAMEE!!! HARAMEE!!"....I walk back to my bedroom, and hubby is moving agitated like and yelling this over and over. (thief! thief!) I wake him up slowly. Are you okay? He says...was I yelling out loud? I asked him what he was dreaming....and all he says is that he was running after a thief. Hmmmmmm. So

I got him a glass of milk and some dates. He's getting used to praying fajr on time now. Alhamdulillah. While drinking his milk, he tells me that he has work near the pyramids. He'll be having iftar outside. Hmmmm......

I get an idea. I have some meat in the freezer, so I take it out to defrost. He goes to the mosque to pray Fajr, and I pray at home, then back to sleep. Only for a short while....back up at 7:10 am to get the kids ready for school.

Up I get, dragging my feet....sigh. I get the kids out the door......and start cooking. I decide to make iftar for hubby and my nephew. (they will be together) Isn't that nice of me?? And I wake hubby at 10:30 am. He gets all ready to go, and I try to give him his dinner.

"whats this?" "I can't take that with me." "I'll be embarassed."

Loser. He wouldnt' take it. But he did manage to say.....thats really nice of you. I stopped trying to push it on him, and my voice caught as I was saying salaam to him. Sigh. He says he's gonna stop by and change after he finishes his business in our city first. Okay.

So I got some stuff to do......and I get things done...laundry, dishes...etc etc. I clean up the clutter thats on the main balcony that he's been complaining about. Kids come home. Yup. Interesting day.

I'm thinking to myself. I want to clean my plate, u know? Have all my responsibilities on the up and up so that I feel like I'm no to blame for any domestic issue. Sometimes I feel like he searches for them.....no....I know he does. So I was going after anything that wasn't his idea of perfection, and trying to get it outta the way. So I'm thinking about this today. And I'm thinking about my rejected efforts. And I"m thinking about my last post and my un reciprocated efforts. And I'm thinking.....maybe I'm trying too hard?

And then.......

Here's what happens. I need to vaccuum and then I'm done. Hubby comes home.....I act like nothing happened that morning. He can't decide what to wear....so I pick him out clothes. He places his arm lovingly on my shoulder. (this is called effort, in case u didn't know) Anyways......he goes to the bathroom, and I go vaccuum. Kids are sitting on the diningroom table........baby is in his chair. I get the vaccuum out and start........and then.......are you ready??

Well.....and then......I somehow trip over the pole on the vaccuum..........I manage to catch myself from falling.....but then somehow get tangled up in the hose......I'm going to fall!!! But I catch myself yet again......and then step on the hose!!! My kids are breaking out in laughter.....and I'm all over the place.......so I manage to jump of the hose....back up into the vaccuum cleaner itself and trip over the darn thing!!! And instead of trying desperately to stand up......I give in!!! I fall down on the floor......and LIE THERE!

My Hubby comes outta the bathroom....ARE YOU OKAY??? And he looks at me with shock and surprise......

I'm giggling!

The girls are giggling!

Then I'm laughing.....and the girls are laughing!!

So he stands there all confused and I say to him, thru my laughter, thru the tears.......

"Dont worry....I'm okay! I just couldnt' stand it anymore" HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

More giggles from the girls. LOLOL!!! So I lay there an entire 5 mins that felt like at least 15. And I keep giggling....listening to my girls go on about me.....

"And did u see her when she stepped on the hose? That's when I knew she'd go down....!!!"

And thru the laughter.......thru the tears.......I say to myself.....sometimes you just have to stop trying so hard...........

(And that's how Allah sends signs for those of us who see!!!)

"Surely! In this are signs, for those who see (or understand or learn the lessons from the Signs of Allâh). " 15:75