Deleted.....for now.
So this morning he has another text message....an entirely different tune.....
"Je t'aime, I LOVE U, Bahebek! I was just thinking about how much you mean to me.....does your hands remember my touch?"
Errrrr......ya....okay. GAG! I'm guessing with his wife right in front him and 5 kids running around, one of them a happy baby.....he's really thinking about her touch. Perhaps he thinks about it in between the text messages that she sends him about hating him. Ya, that's what I think.
And rather than being upset, angry, mad or hurt at this text message......I found it highly amusing. Couldn't stop laughing about it. Hubby got out of the shower....and I was smiling. I washed his glasses and started giggling. He started to pray....and I was still giggling. "Does ur hands remember my touch?"
Before he left he asked me what was so funny. I told him nothing in particular. It felt good to just NOT FEEL anything about her and him. It was like....who cares? He's here with me, isn't he? He must have about 10 texts on his phone from her.
But then....he didn't. He came home in time for Maghrib.....broke his fast...(extra days of Shawwal).....and I took a quick peep. He deleted them all. Even deleted the pending ones that don't want to go thru. All gone. It seems that the lovey dovey one tipped him off.
I pray that I stay in this place where the emotions just bounce. Where I don't feel threatened. Don't feel upset. It's a great place to be.....even if it turns out to be fleeting.
And you know what? Thinking about her message again....the giggles are escaping again......"Does your hands.....??" LOL!
(and yet, somewhere deep inside.....I do feel this pang in my heart about her texts.....she's reaching and trying......and things are unstable for her........I feel for her as a woman)
posted by Safa at 11:40 AM
6 Comments:
Safa, often i have questioned our inability to identify with each other as women. What has happened to us women that we are no longer able to understand and share the experience of simply being women.
you renewed my faith today. thank you.
-lost bedouin
2:56 PM
The part that would make me laugh would be the bad grammar ;-) But that is just the teacher in me....
Hope you stay happy Safa.
Salaam Alaikum,
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3:42 PM
salam alaikoum
sometimes you have to laugh, laughing better than crying. He must realise too that she is "trying" as in grasping for straws.
12:22 AM
Safa, Oh Please stop reading the text. It will become an obsessin. Like me and the emails. I would check everyday. I would not want to read them but could not help myself. Then be soooo hurt when I read things i didnt want too see. Things i didnt want to be true. Or things i knew where true but could not face. Let him have that ........after all it is HIS marriage........learn from my mistakes. Dont do it.....he has t do this his way.he is with you.....yes, I am sure he does think fo her touch but so what..........he is touching you.. NOT HER ...the fact is all it is ......is a memory. Let them have it....work on your marriage and let her desperatly try to hang on to hers....let her fell the lonliness you felt when he was there......it is YOUR time to just be a family....dont let her win dont give her ANY of your time, energy or thoughts......
3:20 AM
Well ya....the bad grammar is what started it....LOL!
LL&LI.....I hear ya. And I'm so happy that you've advised me of this......and yup....it's an obsession....I just can't stop looking. I think it helps that he can't reply back to her right now. I tried to fix the phone for him......but I have no idea what it is....
3:50 AM
lol. That is so funny safa. I have had similar moments as those. Times where you just don't care and have to laugh a little at how pathetic it all really is. btw....missed you a lot! hope to talk to you soon insha Allah and catch up.
4:54 PM
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