It's the same old grind.....

I'm finally going to have my carrot cake today....OOOHHHH I've been dying for some.....and my darling, sweet 14 yr old finally got around to making some. 1 round cake, 1 bundt cake, and 24 mini muffins.....isn't she the absolute bestest ever?? HAHA!! I've been pounding away at the organization and cleanliness of my kitchen and the closer I get to perfection...the more my spirits lift. I wonder what it is about cleaning out my kitchen that makes me happy? I followed some of HA's advice and took some things off my counter....no more trays that have coffee and tea bags on it...no more containers with the bread sticks......I just didn't have the heart to take off the blender tho. I like it on my counter....sheesh!

Oh my....so listen to this....my hubby calls, okay....and I finally get it out of my lips to ask him about his wife....are they living together again yet? Or still living seperately? They are still living apart....she's in her place and he's in his. He told me that things are looking better for her lately....how so? I asked. He said that she's starting visiting her kids and things are looking up for her. But for ME, he said...it's the same old grind. Hmmmmm....seperate views of HER and HIM. Nothing to get me thinking, mind you.....they ARE still married. At the end of the conversation he says..."I love you" to me...and I say hastily...."you too". It's all I can muster.....it's hard to say, I REALLY LOVE YOU, dear....I miss you habibee...nope, none of that stuff. It just doesn't come naturally anymore. Well, enough talk of THAT depressing subject.

So my baby ticker changed to the bigger baby. OMG.....it's so nice to look at......can't wait till I"m at the halfway mark!! Amazing that my body is making a baby. What a nice feeling.

Still am not sleeping in my bed. WTH? I just don't want to. Maybe once I get my kitchen perfect that'll change? HAHA!

I'm sort of troubled today....got some things on my mind....not all dealing with me. But with others that I care for......sometimes this internet drives you crazy. You love people that you know you'll never hug, you'll never look into their eyes when they are crying, you'll never wave goodbye to. Internet can be so cold. I wish that I could meet all of you readers.....even if it was for ya'll to give me a boot in my arse! I'd still say "thanks! I needed that!" Love you guys.....