The wheels on the bus go round and round.....

......round and round....round and round.

So here's what I've been thinking.......watch out! After a lot of soul searching.....I've come to the conclusion that my marriage is "scarred". There are so many lies, and deceit surrounding my husbands "marriages". Yes, true I didn't know about wife # 2 until January and she had since been divorced and gone....but there were situation when he storyed me into buying stuff for "business" which was in fact for this woman. And then I found out about wife # 3.......after a big scandal last summer, where she sent him a text message on his phone saying,,,,,je t'aime, Habibee. He did this big thing where he called her and asked her what she meant by that marriage.....(of course he called her outside, not in front of me) and he came telling me that she wanted to marry him and was asking him when he was with his family rather than when he was in Canada alone. (BTW, she knew about the other woman who he had just divorced 1 month before she sent her message) So anyways....after we agreed that I couldn't handle him having another wife when we were living in 2 countries, that was that. Or so I thought. At that time, he didn't tell me that he was just divorced.....he didn't mention a word. It wasn't until January I found out......and that he went back to Canada and married the other woman who loved him so much. It's a joke. So I've been thinking......wife # 2 came and went, I didn't know....it hurts....but there isn't much to deal with there. Wife # 3 is my problem. He lied to me about her.....he did stuff.......I just don't want to get into it.......but he lied a lot and turned around and married her anyways.

*I don't want to live alone in Egypt anymore
*I need a husband who is available to me for more than emotional support. (which he isn't even giving)
*The kids need their father
*I need to be a part of his life
*I'm sick and depressed, been on prozac for 3 mos....and feel like a worthless lump

When I pressured my husband once about his lying...he told me to go to hell....which he has never ever said to me in all our married life. When I ask him when we are coming....or when we'll see him....he's hung up the phone on me. Then he didn't call me for 10 days. He's being cruel and all I want are my rights. Last time on the phone I told him when the girls will finish exams and gave him a date to figure out what is happening.
Here's what I'm prepared to do:
*if he comes, he had better be staying 3 mos, if not, I'm gonna have a fit
*if we are going....I may not come back to egypt....I will make my decision while I am there
*if he continues to put me off and tries to let things slide...saying he cant get tickets, or we should wait another month...or or or......I will up and take the kids and go back on my own.

I'm scared, anxious and very very worried. I married this man when I was 18....he's all the life I've known.....but I am prepared to take steps if he continues to refuse to give me my rights. He has no plan......he had the nerve to say to me on the phone that if he was to stay in Cda for 4 mos, he'll owe me 4....or if its 6 mos, he'll owe me 6....even if a year....he'll owe me a year. To which I replied.....I'm not willing to wait that long. That is neither islamic or even proper. So what do you all think.....?? I need some feedback......
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