guide us to the straight path.......

So I read some very good advice today. About focusing more on Allah than on my husband. Yes, I suppose I have flipped that. I used to be such a strong muslimah........firm in my beliefs.......turn to Allah for guidance. Even now, with what is going on, when I turn to my husband and quote hadith and quran, he always has this excuse ready....he says anything is permissible "bil asbaab". Which means, 'with reason". I feel sick of this phrase. I've heard it enough. I want the hurt to stop and the only way that I see it stopping is if I cut it off and throw it away. I am wounded......and shall forever remain that way......just a thought, a look, a touch......and it is reopened....and will hurt just as much as the day it was inflicted. That is a reality.

So today, let me keep busy. Let me try to remember Allah........

I think that whatever choice I make, whatever I do..........will be for the best. It is written and the ink is dry. "On no soul shall we place a burden greater than it can bear, before us is a record which clearly speaks the truth, they can never be wronged." surah muminoon ayat 62.

I shall be stronger each day, shall take firm steps.......and turn to Allah.