Were you there.....??

.....today when your son tried to say vacuum but it sounded more like he was saying F U ? It took us three or four times until we could make him say it right. Oh the look on our faces when we realized what he was really saying.......

.....yesterday when your daughter fell off her bike? It shouldn't have been a big thing, but it was. The brakes on the handle bars broke off and jabbed her on her thigh. Amazingly, she limped home....the cut just millimeters away from an artery.....I thank Allah that she's alive at this moment. She got 3 stitches on a cut that maybe an inch and a half long, but probably twice as deep. I held her hand when the DR told her that she'd have to take off her underwear while he stitched it.....right in the crevasse of her leg....such a strange spot. She was so brave even though she cried during the stitches.

......last week when your 15 yr old made a surprise birthday party for her friend? A house full of teens, giggling and laughing and trying to be quiet. (okay, not very hard) So much work and planning went into this party, and your daughter did it all alone....I did the minimal and I'm so proud of her.

.....3 weeks ago, when your oldest lost her job? It's a complicated situation.....but it worries me. I talked to her about it and I know the whole story. You've only heard her version....it's probably easier for you that way. She has yet to find another job.....and needs some money.....does she have to ask you for it, or perhaps you realize it on your own?

.....last summer when your 6 yr old (almost 7) learned to ride her bike? Sjon taught her. He ran behind her all the way and she rode like the wind! Nothing is more precious than that smile on her face, the joy and exhilaration! Thank God she was wearing her helmut, because her 3rd time on the bike she fell off rather badly and damaged her helmut. We had to buy another one....a small cost compared to the head injury that might have been.

.....7 years ago tomorrow....I gave birth to your precious child....child # 4.....alone. I almost considered driving myself to the DR while I was in labour. The night before I gave birth, my house almost burnt down. My kitchen was up in flames and my entire building ran upstairs to help me put it out. Everyone was there, but not you. Not even the next day....not even the next month.

When were you there? You've missed everything that has been important and yet you still act like you can make a difference. You continue to hurt your children, disappoint your children and yes, even forget your children.

I can't believe you are wanting to have another one. My heart already hurts for this would be child.