Where is she now?
I was thinking about a comment I had once about those little voices that speak to me. Remember that post where I went to Carrefours against the ex's will and the whole way I was just thinking haraam haraam? Well it's those voices I'm talking about. Is that a deeper conscience or an ingrained evil?
Well, either way......I don't hear that anymore....I've overcome my limitations....
What I've been thinking about a lot lately, is how I've grown. How I've developed as a person. I'm surprised at myself with some things.... Here are some things that I've learned...
-I'm great at conversation
-people seek out my company
-that I do my job well (I've been promoted twice and given a raise already)
-people see me as being thorough and meticulous (2nd word used by my boss)
-that I'll do anything for my children
-that I can be loved by a man without him trying to hurt me
-that I have scars
-I can do whatever I want, I'm in charge of me
So yeah...I'm 37 and learning things...LOOOL!
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So guess where I am right now? I'm in Holland. Helping the new hubby sell all his things and bring him back to Canada. I've taken Abdu with me and left the others with Mom. Its hard being away from them, and strange at the same time. Some days I feel completely sad without the kids around, and at others, I say to myself...this is just a short vacation, so to speak.....
Abdu is loving the quality time. I've met my FIL and he's a wonderful man. He's not in the greatest of health and lives in a seniors home. We visit him regularly and bring him things. I've also helped clean parts of his apt.
And what else? Well....lets save some for later, k?
posted by Safa at 12:05 AM
8 Comments:
Assalamu Alaikum,
This is great. I was wondering how your Daughter is doing. the one that went with her father? Inshallah she is doing well, and safe
7:32 AM
Ia m so happy Safa and glad to see a new post! u've come a long way sweetie and u deserve every bit of happiness, isnt discovering urself wonderful, ure amazing, i would love to meet u in person one day!
-Ruhguzar
8:55 AM
Wait, when did you get married? I thought you had a date of Jan 15? Anyway, congratulations!
9:22 AM
Wait, did you forget to tell us something? When did you get married? Congratulations you deserve only the best.
10:10 AM
I'd truthfully say I really think that was the voice of your deeper conscience but your inner voice is waay too strict too. :P If you had a valid reason, why couldn't you go where you wanted?
Anyways, that scum of the earth isn't anyone related to you anymore and you have this wonderful wonderful guy so even if it WAS the voice of your conscience (or was not, however it may be), you're safe home. Forget it. Good to see you moving on :-)
So, what this about the marriage, eh?! You're worse than me! Popping surprise marriages and engagements on us poor unsuspecting peeps. :P
8:11 PM
Hubby-to-be.....sorry.....and yes jan 15th is the tentative date...
4:30 AM
I rememeber that post. I also remember when you and the girls won cinema tickets and didn't go because you didn't get that man's permission, and reading that post I could not believe how opressed you were - and long distance, too! I was shocked and even angry!
You've come a loooong way. So glad you are living up to your potential, and that your children are growing up in a much healthier environment.
11:18 PM
So really reallllly happy for you Safa!
3:48 AM
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