The borrowed smile.....
No gentle pleasure am I:
I am a discerning mind's lie;
No dimples of truth or teeth of laughter
I am the aftermath of many a disaster.
A sheild of happiness for the saddest sigh
Solace of the eyes that have forgotten how to cry
Mercy to friends, I save them the burden of a friend's grief:
I hide the heart so in want of relief
Mercy to myself, for I know not my friends or foes
Who would care for how my life goes-
I know not what I may convey
Don't look into the eyes, they give me away.
posted by Safa at 7:44 AM
16 Comments:
My dearest Safa - I feel your pain, there is truly no need to try to hide it - your good friends know of it's existence and are all rooting for you - waiting for you to call on us to share the burden you bear - for we know that a burden shared is a burden halved. Do not hide yourself away - allow us to 'carry' you through this trial in your life - that is what friend's do - and you have many of them all waiting for you - wishing we could be of more assistance. I love you and worry when you hide.
3:20 AM
Dear Safa with the beautiful eyes,
Eqianqueen has already said it all, but I wan`t to say it too.
It`s a selfish wish, the wish to help, to hope that you contributed something positive for someone else. Don`t you know that?
Don`t hide your pain and sorrows from your friends and loved ones, you are merely hurting yourself and them by taking away their possibility of being there for you.
Show yourself in times of weakness to your friends, when you need it, those who love you, they long to share your burden instead of fearing for you from a distance.
For a friend to be allowed to console you is an honour and a bond of trust and gives hope that if sorrow and trial befall them, they have you to come to.
You give your readers so much, I can only imagine how rewarding it must be to be your actual friend. Let them give back, allow yourself to be weak in front of those who love you and offer their shoulder, their ear, in order to heal and become strong.
I know how difficult it is to break out of the Tough Trooper attitude, take off your e n t i r e mask and be raw. It`s frightening and emotionally heavy to shed a l l shields.
I don`t. I can`t .
It`s not a state to recommend. The ramifications are severe.
You don`t need to go there, I don`t want to see you down here where I recide due to hiding my hurts.
You have precious loved ones who need you, do not make my mistake, long term it can put them in danger of loosing you, partly or in the worst case scenario, fully!
Dare what I don`t, please...
7:03 AM
Hugs to you my dear! It really burns that he can still f-- with you this way. How low of him!
You are so strong and you've made it this far. Fight for yourself and your beautiful children for what you need.
10:07 AM
awwww, tks guys......loving you from afar....
10:49 AM
I can not say anything because it has already been said....You have a wonderful thing with these friends of yours they(we) are just waiting for you to use our shoulders because we(I) have used yours so many times for such petty things. I love you, PT.
9:45 PM
Hugs to you Safa dear!
12:04 AM
Asalaam alaikum,
Safa...through it all, you know Allah SWT has never and will never forsake you.
I know you are tired, and in pain that seems unbearable...but isn't it beautiful though that Allah is so merciful to give us trials throughout which we can realize how much we need Him? Tests that show us we are human, we feel...and that He can love us so much to test us so we can just return to Him and rely on Him??
You are so dear to so many, your family, your friends, and even to strangers. We will make more dua for you! May Allah ease this for you, ameen. Don't give up.
10:20 PM
Your load has been heavy and burdensome my dear Safa.
You have supported your sweet children, your brother and your Mum.
Financially, emotionally, & spiritually you have been the rock for all. Your a remarkable woman. We get strength from you continually. When things get unbearable, take a drive in the countryside, and just have a good cry. Cry as loud as you need. Hugs to you, :)
9:19 AM
Just dropped in to say salam and tell you I think abt you all the time. Love and hugs!
5:59 AM
You know why i keep coming back to your blog?
we all have problems, some bigger than others. but wha sets you apart safa is your perseverence and patience and concern for your children. you could have dramatized their life by sharing everythin with them but you keep in mind their childhood first.
and you persevere.
and i feel like you are inspiring mash'allah. don't give up safa.
keep on climbing.
Naureen
8:34 PM
You have lots of beautiful children from this man so he wasnt totally useless
And those kids are going to be the source of untold happiness in your life.. because you have a life now
I hope you get over this and carry on this strange and amazing journey called life with a spring in your step listening to Abba... afterall its no bad thing being a dancing queen
all the best
Crazy the daisy
8:32 AM
Oh sweetie, I saw your picturechange.
Now, dear, you don`t want to throw away your heart.
The heart just makes the blood flow through your body, don`t reject a pump!
What you would have to throw away is actually your brain:
http://www.sfn.org/index.cfm?pagename=brainbriefings_loveandthebrain
You are a practical woman, you see the problems with throwing your brain out I am sure...;-)
I say keep it even if it`s a bother at most times and they say ignorance is bliss.
You need it for tying your shoes to keep walking...
Have a laugh from a brilliant mind about nursery rhymes told mindlessly to children:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYytaZ06Hco
Hugs from Norway
2:25 AM
Assalamu alaikom, I read and think about you alot. I rarely comment but I am here. I have been coming back to this post many times now and then I look over to the side and see your change in profile pic. My heart sank to my stomach when I noticed that. I wish I could offer some real advice or some comforting words. All I can tell you is that I am lifting you up in my prayers.
11:15 AM
Missing you Safa.
Please come back and talk to us:)
6:38 PM
assalaamalikum dearest safa
please come back,now I am here and you are gone.miss you
love,amina
7:01 AM
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11:07 PM
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