Part of the ride.....

I'm packing. My 11 yr old thinks I'm going thru the winter clothes. I tell her I will bring the extra clothes to the villa and give some away. My 15 yr old helps me with this. As I sort thru the clothes, I try not to fall victim to the memories contained within them.

only the essentials.....

I realize that the luggage that we have are too big. How can we carry them downstairs? So I go and buy medium size duffel bags....I'm sure I can sneak these out. And then there is the problem of the BIL....he always takes the mercedes.....how will I bring down 10 duffel bags without them noticing? Questions, questions.......and I can bring so little.....

only the essentials.....

So I think up a good plan.....I will put some luggages in the Land Cruiser with black tinted windows.....only I have a key. They won't see them in there. And then all I have to do is transfer them......yes, this will work for now. So I keep looking thru the "winter clothes"....secretely packing up. Slowly shutting the door on my marriage and silently saying goodbye and constantly thinking of.....

only the essentials......

I remember to look thru paperwork....taking whatever may be needed. And then 2 days before.....I tell the 13 yr old. I explain to her exactly what we are doing.....keeping out the main details......and she smiles. Then she cries. Why do you cry? I ask her. It's hard to let go of friends. Yes, so true. I can't even tell mine. And that makes me sad. I hope they understand. Then she asks me.....what can I bring?

only the essentials.....

I can't tell the 11 yr old. This secret is too large. And as I pack, I go over things in my brain.....tickets, passport, luggage, car, kids, .......and ask myself....what else?? What else? I need to plan it all......I need to think of everything.....if ever I need to use my brain....now is the time.... Did I tell you that I am scared? I think what will happen if I get caught....I think of a huge scene at the airport.....police........(((((shudder))))) I try to refocus on the packing.....don't think about consequences.....think about what is to come......you can do it! Go Safa, you can DO IT!! But remember this.......while you are packing.......you need......

only the essentials.....