just a little news.....

I called a sheikh today and spoke to him about my situation. I didn't get into the WHOLE details....just what I thought was important....namely that at the present time my hubby has two wives in two countries and that he's being unfair to me timewise and that I am suffering because of it.

The sheikh asked me a few questions.....by my language he could tell I was a foreigner....so he asked where I was from. Then he asked me if I have any family here with me in Egypt...nope...none I said. Then he asked me what my relationship is with my hubby's family....next to non existant and no one is talking to us anymore I said. I think I mentioned that we spent Eid alone.

So he told me that he sees 3 solutions to my problems of time.....(amazing...cuz my hubby says there is NO solution....)

#1....hubby sends MM to Egypt and when he comes here, he divides his time between us

#2....hubby brings us all back to Canada and divides his time

#3....he divorces one of us.....

Now the Sheikh said that because I am the wife with the kids....that I would be the best choice to keep......but that in the end...its up to hubby if thats a choice he'll make.

So there we've got solutions. So hubby called and I told him.....and told him that the Sheikh wants to talk to him. Until now, he has been unwilling to take anyones counsel. But he agreed. I can't believe he agreed.

At the end of the conversation with hubby he told me to take care of myself.....to which I said...I wish I had a husband to do that for me...... Soon....he replied. I told him that his "soon" never comes and that I need a man. I told him I'm breaking down....and that I don't care for anything anymore. I am not the strong woman that he thinks I am...that I've been pushed to my limits and I'm failing....

He was sorta silent thru my little rant.....but he was listening.....what did he have to offer? Well, he's going to call the Sheikh and he said to me...."insha Allah, everything will work out..."

I didn't fall for that....and I told him....maybe things will work out for you in the dunya but are you willing to sacrifice ur akhira for it? (thoughtful silence)

I feel good about getting that off my chest with him and getting him to call. I pray he does.....that he finally picks up the phone....and I hope the sheikh is hard on him....I really do. I told the sheikh I'm pregnant with number 5.

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Now I just was remembering something hubby told me after I found out he was married.....he said to me on the phone....if you had a choice for NO husband or half a husband...what would u choose? I said, I hope I'm not faced with that......and then he says....well I could die tomorrow and then you wouldn't have me....so having half of me isn't a bad alternative. OH PUH LEASE! So I'm supposed to say to that....

THANK GOD U GOT MARRIED CUZ IF I WAS GOING TO LOSE YOU, I'D RATHER LOSE YOU TO ANOTHER WOMAN THAN TO DEATH!

Thanks for the choice sweetheart. It just goes to prove that when a man tries to justify things.....he just comes up with the most excellent form of bullshit you can imagine. I mean, hey....if I was only growing a garden, baby!! We'd have a good crop this year!!!

LOLOLOL!!! OKay....I'm being sickly funny with my moment of reprieve......