bits and pieces....
I had a rough night yesterday. My three girls woke up, one by one....(the little one kept sleeping...) and they were crying. As I went to their rooms and talked to them, it seems like all three of them were crying for the same reasons. They all said to me...
*our life is ruined
*nobody loves us anymore
*my Baba is leaving us
The nobody loves us issue is about no one meeting us at the airport, them not calling us to welcome us home, neither did the other BIL in Canada when we were there. (He just arrived in Egypt, btw, I called of course and did all the niceties) They feel like they are losing their Baba cuz of this other woman. He got married to her without telling them, so it adds up to them that he doesn't care what we think. One of the hardest questions I had to answer was from my 9 yr old who said, "When we were in Canada, the other woman was always calling Baba on the phone when he was with us, and he would call her too. But when Baba would go to her house, he'd never call us. He loves her more."
O man. I one by one told them that everyone goes thru rough times, I told them that their Baba would never leave them, I told them that everyone is kinda mad at Baba right now, so they find it awkward being near us. I asked them to be patient with me.
Then I went out into the livingroom and made a huge bed on the floor, and slept with all my dears around me.
But before I did that, I went into my room for a bit and had a good cry. My poor dears........even though we may make it thru all this, they are definately scarred. I pray there is going to be a happy ending.
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On a different note. I'm getting DSL. In the process....yay! Well, okay. I haven't made the call yet, but I'm gonna. Sheesh, details.
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The prices of food have gone up in Egypt. I called our favourite little local pizza place and ordered our usual.....which comes to about $44 LE.....imagine my surprise when he told me $68 LE. WHAT? I went over the order with him, it sure did go up. No way was I paying Pizza Hut prices for local pizza. So I treated the girls with a surprise. Pizza Hut. The difference in price was meagre. The taste? YUM!
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I am having a hard time sleeping. It's still the hours I think. I don't know. I still have things to unpack. I need to get some energy. I want to drink a two litre bottle of diet coke all by myself without anyone seeing.
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Did I mention that I want to start a new diet? Ya, really. I think what I'll do is post my diet plan on here, along with my daily menu and carb/protein breakdown. I'm going to do a low carb diet. I've done it before and lost 60 lbs. I'll post u guys all about it later....
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YAWN! I was just thinking of my comment of saying I was going to open a can of ass whoop. I am so lame and out of it sometimes. I meant Whoop Ass. But I bet u guys all understood. No really, I was pure canadian before I came to Egypt. Now I'm a foreigner in both worlds. Sheesh.
posted by Safa at 11:09 AM
7 Comments:
My heart aches for your girls. May Allah soothe their little hearts, Ameen.
12:05 PM
Safa, may Allah your girls and you, ameen.
And habibti, sign me up for your low carb plan. We'll be support buddies. Though ramadhan is going to be challenge to stay away from all the sweets.
12:36 PM
I know how hard it is to see your little ones in pain. You can bear your own suffering somehow, but not thiers. Insha'Allah it will all work out... And your DH, Yah Rubbaetick (I have no idea how you would spell that)!!! Maybe if he saw some of the things you see in the children he would re-think his selfishness.
Well, Alhamdulilah you are home and moving on with things. Insha, Allah you can have some sense of things being normal for awhile.
1:49 PM
I'm sorry for your little ones. My parents say that they are resilient and will be alright. I remember that it sucked and it open a hole for hatred. When I was in the BI (before Islam) I would never mess with married women just because I had personal divorce issues surrounding that. That brings back memories.
It is best to follow this situation with a positive one. Whether that is staying alone by yourselves and making it on your own. Remarrying to a positive relationship, or staying and completely shifting focus into positive directions. I think that you should let the girls know that in life everyone makes tough decisions and that your decisions may not be the decisions that you expect them to make. When they leave you ensure that they have a positive attitude and the ability to set boundaries and they will be fine. You are learning lessons from this. It may be that you will instill in them the tools that they need to thrive. I'm not saying that you are weak or anything, but I think that my advice is tainted with that type of overtone, and for that I apologize. I know that you are at a station in life and I know that shifting from one to the next can be frightening and difficult and everyone moves at their own pace.
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You're gonna like DSL!!
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They put too much crap into soda these days.
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My wife lost a bunch of weight with Billy Blanks of Tae bo fame. That's why she's preggers again. It is a cycle get pregnant, Nurse, get on excersize/diet regimen, lose weight, preggers again. If this is a boy it will be the last iteration.
11:41 PM
Good point made here. About the kids having the tools they need to thrive. I've already told them that my decisions in life may be wrong and may be right, but that each person has to decide their own. I know my girls will all be tough little buggers by the way they talk with me about their lives. I love strength.
Low carb plan will be on the way, and I'm even going to do it in Ramadan.....who needs sweets??
3:42 AM
Asalamalaykom Safa,
If it's any consolation: the girls are letting out their feelings now because they feel safe. As Dr. Phils says, "They feel that you are their soft place to land." Give them that time and space to let it out and then give them some joyful moments. Go somewhere new and make some new memories. Maybe fun plans for Ramadan?
3:55 PM
Who needs sweets?!?!?!? Ramadan sweets??!!?! You're mad, woman. This is the best time of the year for a sugar-induced coma. Stop by Kuweider for me, Safa.
11:32 AM
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